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bangun pagi tadee mood

tadee mood tapi tangan gatal nak update blog

huh! 

sebenarnye ak rs tak tentu arah ni. 

mcm mana kalo mcm ni, mcm mana kalo mcm tu

ape jadi kalo ak mcm ni.

yela, semua plan kan dlm mood pegun

so, ak tak nampak ape2 lagi..

and the worst thing ever----i dont have a back up plan

so, where should i start??

bile moody, one of cara nak ease down mmg dgn menulis. ak biasa akan write up all my feeling ms tgh tulis. 

tapi in this case, even writing seem impossible. ak tatau how to express it. rasa mcm nak korek hati ni letak sebijik sebijik dalam blog bagi the feeling come out itself. bagi org paham. bagi ak ilang perasaan dah.

ak rasa penerimaan mungkin berbeza kalau this thing happen masa ak in the middle of study. ni my final semester kot. ak punye end to start a new phase in my life. rasa nak jerit kuat2 and nangis macam ni

seriously~~ mungkin dgn menjerit boleh lega?

tapi living in a house share with another 7 peoples, ko gile nak melalak meraung like the end of the world?

housemate tny amacam result. ak rasa nak campak laptop ni dok sesebok pehal. tapi takdela sampai cenggitu. ak just membatu. benda paling susah nak buat iaitu menyenyapkan diri..

oh, tidak2. mesti ada plan G. plan kepada plan2 pegun sebelum ni. mesti wat something. mesti gi tanya sana sini. tapi takut. malu. segan. tak terdaya. depress. kuciwa dgn diri sendiri. so, where should i start???arghhh..sudah, blurr....tsk.tsk.