Bubbye stress

oh, i've give the farewell long ago 

but u never really go

always here now and then...

kicking my ass, making me stress...

how should i define this feeling

when u keep on intruding? 

how can i cool myself down

when the least thing is u that come around?

Bubbye stress

please give me a rest

i've had u enough

i cant deal with u anymore

oh my dear stress

please give me some space

exam around the corner

and i want to be a scorer

sebolehnya ak tanak jadi hamba duit..yang menganggap duit itu penting...yang merasa hidup tanpa duit itu seksa..yang merasa kaku..pegun..bila akhirnya ak tabley nak buat apa. 

belum grad lagi ak da pening kepala pikir pasal duit, masalah kat rumah tak kira shah alam ke seremban...terduduk ak bila ak rasa helpless...tak leh gerak, tak boleh wat ape...nak tgu gaji masuk mgu depan seksa....tahun depan tu weyy...lambat lagi...buat bajet pun still tak cukup...ini duit ada 3 hinggit...makan masak je kat rumah...kedit tadee takpe sebab tadee org nak sms sgt...cuma duit minyak la...cukup kot...weekend ni keje...tak sempat la ak nak pikir masalah...charger laptop wat hal...nak beli yg local punya pun kena pakai duit jugak...org yg kata duit tak penting tu, meh sini ak nak sepak kepala dia laju2...

hurmm....

org yg melihat tak sama dengan org yang merasa... level stress kita lain2... tak sama...jangan nak samakan sebab we react differently towards different situation. member ak, stress pasal duit tapi haluu2 boyfriend, mintak duit...sorang lagi pun sama, konon tadee duit..halu2 parents, dapat la duit wat belanja. so, ak punya level of stress tak sama dengan korang even we may face the same problem. ak takde boypren nak mintak duit, takkan ak nak susahkan parents ak lagi pasal duit? diaorg sendiri pun tak cukup....ada yg suggest wat bisnes bagai..kalo setakat "bisnes" cari2 org, tapayah..i've been there and i know how the "bisnes" work to make money...takde istilah easy money la geng. lain la keje ko mmg cop duit je kan. u want money, u've to work for it...u want more, u've to work harder...dang...

benci betul hidup pakai currency ni...

kan best macam dolu2...ak trade in lembu duploh ekor, dapat ferrari sebijik ke...kan best, ak trade in serai tanam tepi rumah + buah rembutan sikit +pisang sikit dapat la iphone 4 ke...sape punye idea yg cipta currency ni? cakap sikit...meh ak luku kepala ekau...ko susahkan cucu cicit ko adala....

and...

exam nak dekat....lagi wa tensen. nak nyorok bawah meja..adeyy....nak grad on time la bebi...tanak extend2 ni...T___T tatooottt....

stress2 go away, 

come back another day...

stress2 u are not needed

play over there and be a gud boy

stress2 u make me look old

i dont want to reach my 30's and look bold =(

stress2 dont u get it

i hate u, please be excuse...

dapat belated bday present....
kalo org lain, da basi...
tapi for me, my bday is belated for 1 whole year from 26 nov onwards...wakaka...
so, hadiah tetap hadiah...
and mestila suka...
dapat perfume...nak ckp ak busuk eh...ahaha...
ok simpan wild thought semua...ak wangi okeih...=P
thanks...merci beaucoup...arigato ghozaimas....
next year bagi botol lagi besar eh...orite..lebiu...ahaha

i'm emotional

sape yang kenal kite, mesti tau bangat yg kite kuat sentap...garang...suka marah...ye, kite tau tu semua sifat negatif yg tak patut ada. tapi being a middle child ni, mula la kreatif cari cara nak kan perhatian...oh, ok tipuu...tabley salahkan middle child...kang ada yg kata dia middle child tapi cool je...T__T 

akceli, kite ni mmg kuat sentap. pastu simpan. sentap. simpan. simpan punye simpan, akhirnye explode. sekali meletups, mmg la nampak burok...kite ssh nak terus terang. rasa konpiden level looowww je nak cakap betul2..sekrg da pledge nak kurangkan marah, kurangkan stress.. ssh woo nak berubah after 23 thn. tapi, takkan nak jadi cenggini 23 thn lagi...tak best oh...tak cool. kite nak jd org cool...hahaha...

suke bila dr hilwani bercerita pasal how dia react towards people. dia pesan "always remember, dont talk bad things on the first meeting. always said good things, dont talk bout ppl. u can talk bout ppl with the closest friend of yours sahaja" oh, seronok gi kelas dia mcm gi motivational talk je...

2011 indeed an emotional year thru out...gelak je bila baca entry, diari since awl thn haritu....how funny i can be when i'm emotional...mengada rasa nak lempang pun ada...hwahwahwa....dengan practical training nye yg penuh suka duka supervisor tak supervise sangat...balik keje lewat, sampai rumah rushing g keje plak...balik keje da penat...tido pastu esok bangun awal pagi and the routine berterusan sampai ujung  bulan mei...rasa nak lompat2 bila countdown da abis....pastu jaga atok, how he make me laugh thru his innocent act...awal thn beli motor, bulan pose accident. my dad kena strok. then  sept masok study balik, nk adapt balik dgn buku after 10 months tak dekat dgn buku pun can be a struggled tooT___T

thru and thru, da nak abis pun 2011...tatot...tatott dgn future...tanak tanjat2 ni....hahaha..ngade...sile muntah sekarang!

azam tahun baru nak jd lebih matang, pandai kawal emosi, tak boros, pandai cari duit pandai manage...nak start kumpul duit nak buat rumah plak lepas ni...25 dec ni nak pindah...penat woo pindah...acik muda2 dulu byk la masa, tenaga nak angkat2 barang..ni tak larat...da la mmg keje kfc berat, nak lagi angkat barang slaloo...insyaallah i will stick to that wish...ekceli acik tak pandai nak tanam azam, tanam cabai reti la...so dgn malu2 ai publish my new year resolution....oh, entry dua dalam satu boleh kan..boleh blah ke tak, lantak le...tak kose ak nak nulis byk2 kali...k la..esaimen menanti..nak grad on time kan? kena la siapkan...hwaaaa~~~~~

dont give love a bad name

dont give love a bad name
as i aint ready to fall and hurt again
dont give love a bad name
as i'll be paranoid over all those little things
dont give love a bad name
u make those single ppl feel glad,
and those lovebird feel bad...
dont give love a bad name
coz as love fail, it just fail on u, because of u
dont drag other to think that love will eventually fail for them...

someone, recently, asked me bout marriage.
and half-jokingly i said, how was yours?
and being her, she just laugh her way thru it with a sigh
i wonder what kind of sigh is it. a relief or a burden?
well, pardon me mademoiselle,
ur relationship had somehow effect me of seeing things.
ur marriage in a way or another
had given marriage a bad name for me...

getting started, getting married is much for funnier, happier and romantic moment in the beginning,
but after a while, it started to shade off some of the happiness, wear off the laugh when u slowly start to discover bit by bit the other side of ur partner.

i didnt blame u, or marriage for the record
i just need to make sure i can stand up straight,
calmly handling all upcoming situation...
i just need to feel confidence of myself----above all @___@