~~when people had move on but u still want to hold back...when people start to laugh but u still havent smile...when everything seem so wrong but u wish it is right..life aint hard for some people...but for others it is coz they weight the life of past and present...Just LET GO!!~~~

i stop to think and realise, i'm kinda of historian myself...keep reminiscing the old days.. i dont wanna call it stupid as reminiscing is a bless...but keep attaching myself to the past is somewhere between stupid and innocent... and somewhere between the line, i keep wondering 'what if...'

stupid as i know i shouldnt be clinging on the nowhere-to-be-reached past...
innocent as i just couldnt help it.. it just happened..all the laugh or the tears..all the lies or the true...all the black or the white, it coming back like a screen tv showing everything that i've done..

i didnt wish to forget the past. nor i said that i want to ignore it. i just wish i can control the reminiscing activities so that it wont spoil my present...

i want to be able to love, to laugh, to make new history without being attached to the old one..

It's hard to let go..to accept the fact that something amiss from ur life...to accept that something just wont be in ur life...time change everything but never memories...

got to be strong Ida...more focus...get to settle down...have a grip on urself... T___T