once in every 4 years..

tadee idea nak menceceh hari ni. just nak abdikan tulis blog ni so 4 thn akan datang boleh tgk and eh2, rasa jakuun...

well, exam sudaa semalam. doa byk2 la supaya lepas. penat dah bergantung tak bertali ni. rasa mcm weird and hopeless.

nway, life kena diteruskan. tadee sape nak uruskan ur life but urself.

eh, ak ada bape minit je lagi before March..hahaha

so, wishing leapyearsrly to all. sapa2 yg sambut bday rini, oh, jgn sedih. infact ak rasa cool sbb in other years, korang slalu boleh ek sambut bday midnite btwn 28feb-1mac.

goodnite all~~

kekuatan...dengan kuasa Tuhan, datanglah!!

sometimes words alone cant really describe the feeling that wiggling around in my chest. so....

let picture describe it all

comelh eh ak demotivated. meh paaang sikit meh bagi sedoor diri sikit. 

masa bukan tadee.. byk... tapi tak reti nak utilize. sehari suntok ahad ko dok bertepek kat rumah tapi study tak jalan gak. nak tunggu ape tah baru dtg semangat nak study. 

rasa nak...tarik selimut nyorok sampai keadaan reda. sampai bangun dari tido and eh, semua ni mimpi??

meh paaannggg lagi sekali. gediks. yup. menggelitis gedik ak nih. sedor T__T ada ubat tak??

so, disebabkan laptop depan mata, ak google doa2 penerang hati. moga bersih sikit hati berkarat ni. mudah2an dapat le melalui segala pancaroba dengan tenang dan tidak meroyan T__T

yes, sila tau ak mmg sensitip orgnye. kejap2 kang stress, tensen. kalo tgh *cough* peoT *cough* tu, lagi la menjadi2 meroyan tahap taleh control pastu bile da sedor diri, rasa nak geget kasut sebab malu dgn diri sendiri...bengong!!!

org cenggini elok je....tembak lelaju...

the biggest or the hardest test currently..oh, jiwa kacau T___T

ape lagi...nangis. nangis real da penat. nangis dalam hati jela... tapi terjumpa nih

and yes, it's true

so....

let this be my 2nd chance in my journey as a student. 

and i do hope that in this few months, i'll return to write how glad i am that this has over and how glad i am to be given a 2nd chance. O Lord give me super extra strength to keep pace with all that YOU've write for me. It's not easy yet I need to face the music. Reality will not always favour me nor any of us. Just keep moving on and dance to any music that life has to offer. Good luck Ieda. you need the luck as much as you need the strength. go on, continue studying. it's never too late to kick some ass..jyeah!!

ssshhuuuuh2...gi study gi. baca doa byk2. selawat byk2. kepadaMu ak berserah~~~

everything happens for a reason or reasonS. 

kena sematkan dlm jiwa

kena belajar terima

setiap terjadi, Dia sediakan yg lebih baik 

cuma penantian itu satu seksaan.

seksaan emosi bagi yg psycho cam aku. yg suke meleret2 pikir bukan2. 

i have 3 days or 36 hours to get myself ready with 5months worth of knowledge. 

~~~~stress~~~~~ 

i'll try my best but if HE said that i'm better to take the long road, then i'll should do

i just a bit paranoid. i'm really sure HIS plan would not fall apart-----but I do.

I pray that He'll show me the best way to achieve my dreams. I really hope so that He'll make me stronger and better every step of the way. I believe that every cloud has it silver lining and every rains bring rainbows. 

melalalalalalut

bangun pagi tadee mood

tadee mood tapi tangan gatal nak update blog

huh! 

sebenarnye ak rs tak tentu arah ni. 

mcm mana kalo mcm ni, mcm mana kalo mcm tu

ape jadi kalo ak mcm ni.

yela, semua plan kan dlm mood pegun

so, ak tak nampak ape2 lagi..

and the worst thing ever----i dont have a back up plan

so, where should i start??

bile moody, one of cara nak ease down mmg dgn menulis. ak biasa akan write up all my feeling ms tgh tulis. 

tapi in this case, even writing seem impossible. ak tatau how to express it. rasa mcm nak korek hati ni letak sebijik sebijik dalam blog bagi the feeling come out itself. bagi org paham. bagi ak ilang perasaan dah.

ak rasa penerimaan mungkin berbeza kalau this thing happen masa ak in the middle of study. ni my final semester kot. ak punye end to start a new phase in my life. rasa nak jerit kuat2 and nangis macam ni

seriously~~ mungkin dgn menjerit boleh lega?

tapi living in a house share with another 7 peoples, ko gile nak melalak meraung like the end of the world?

housemate tny amacam result. ak rasa nak campak laptop ni dok sesebok pehal. tapi takdela sampai cenggitu. ak just membatu. benda paling susah nak buat iaitu menyenyapkan diri..

oh, tidak2. mesti ada plan G. plan kepada plan2 pegun sebelum ni. mesti wat something. mesti gi tanya sana sini. tapi takut. malu. segan. tak terdaya. depress. kuciwa dgn diri sendiri. so, where should i start???arghhh..sudah, blurr....tsk.tsk. 

pegun

result sudah kuar
semuanye terpegun
ak pun terpegun

balik keje sampai rumah kol 2pagi tadi si roomate kata result da kuar masuk email. pointer dia ok. org bijak. kata susah pun boleh jawab T___T

ak bila kata susah, mmg jujur tabley buat. bukan blh buat sikit2 ke, ape ke.

berdebar2 siottttt.....

terus amik air semayang, solat isyak and bc yassin jap. penenang jiwa org kata. ngko dok bergelak tawa kat kfc tadi lupe eh

tula, ak dgr ura2 result kuar rabu

tapi tak amik pot pun. biasela rumours. ak kan bukan gossiper... *sila percayooo

balik2 betul2 rupanye. igt nak ngelak dgn tak bukak portal. tapikkk skg kan zaman teknologi. majuuu...result terpangpang dalam email. ak mmg rasa terpang  pang la

tapi naseb da tenangkan diri

sedih

tapi tadela ak bergolek dok

tapi separuh gile jugak rasa

si dia pulak da ok senyum2 dapat grad on time.

tahniah.
tapi

seeennntap

vavik

len kali ak mmg tableh dok dgn beliau time study


saiko

konon tak stadi

tapi jenis genius, bljr sikit, ingat byk

sedihh...

nak nangis

vencii

semua plan jadi pegun

semua benda jadi pegun

tatau nak cakap ap

nak wat apa

kalo cite kat mak ak, mesti beliau sedih

sebab beliau da sebok bebel ngan ak nak exam jgn keje. tapi ak degil. ni ke penangan nye?

ntahlah.


down..nk ilangkan diri. boleh? T__________________________________T

dari kecik sampai besar

ZAMAN KECIK SAYA

beskal sakit bontot pungkok

Ni Masa 2nd year kat Segamat dulu, ad sorang budak kor-JPA III ak kata ak gemookk.. sejak tu, nasi  adalah musuh ketat. Petang lps kelas ak gi gym. ish, tak segan gi sensorang pun. sebab nekad nak kurus T__T 

Cuba carik mana lemakk ak?? see, kebaya ak pakai pergh pergh pergh langsung tak sexy. terletak je

masa tu ak konon berchenta dgn sekor beruk ni. so, makin la membuak2 perasaan nak kurus. Segamat kan ceruk hutan, so ak tadee maknenya nak kuar berjimbun sgt ke bandor bile weekend. kalo tadee aktvt kolej, haruslah pepagi buto jogging dlm uitm. Menu harian? rumput sayur ijo dgn ratah lauk. dedulu duit makan berkira sbb saving so takdenye la ak nak makan sampai kenyang. makan sampai habis lauk je la. tapi paling ak suke makan tempe sambal or tauhu sambal. ak kan hantuuu soy-based product...=P

Gambor sebelum kurus nan ado pulak. sebab dulu ak belum jakun nak bergambor sgt. kot ada pun ada kat seremban ke tah mane tah. lupooo U__U

Raya 2008 kat Kuantan..lemak semua tadee

Yg baju ijo tu akak ak. selalu jln dgn dia org igt ak kakak. sejak kurus, ak  maintain adek. wakakaka...sama size plak dgn adik ak sek men..peha kecik je. hwaa...rindu

motip gambor? ha, nak tunjuk dimple ak pun terserlah bile pp kurang gebuuu...uuuu.....

Dengan Marinah. bestie. sampai sekarang =)

Masuk 3rd @ final year diploma ak migrate ke Melaka. Reasons? I've my own tapi biar Tuhan je yang tahu. Melalak Marinah bila ak dpt transfer. ak pun terkejut ak dapat sebab surat sampai rumah bile ak da daftar kolej kat Segamat. ak apply je, and my heart masa tu 50-50 tuk transfer. banyak gile kenangan and ofcourse dugaan kat Segamat. Part of it mmg salah ak and ofcourse beruk makyeh tu penyebab utama =(
But I'm glad that I transferred. Lebih tenang. Tadee perasaan jeles melampau. And masa tu Tuhan pun mudahkan jalan utk ak clash for good dgn beruk tersebut. Sedih sbb pnh mencintai beruk dgn full heart tapi ditipu ak bulat2. Oh, dayyum kenapa spoil mood cite pasal beruk ek? korang la ni =P

meh layan random pictures masa kat Melaka plak.

with Norin syg

mak hayam sedonia

gi beraya kot masa ni. lupoo T_T

Raya 2009

ZAMAN MEMBESOR

Well, bila da biasa main gym, beriadah bagai, once u stop mendadak plak tu, ofcourse effect teruuukk..jgn ikut gaya saya okeih. pemalas ya ampun. nak diet cantik berkesan, minum air masak byk and work out. and to maintain, kena kekalkan cara hidup sihat okeih. mcm ak, ak tadee pantang larang. bedal mana yg patut. kat Melaka plak gym org2 tertentu pegang konci. bape kali ak suro kwn ak cek, tutop sajoo..so, lagi la ak jadi malas. 

Habis diploma, ak wat mcm2 keje part time. and mostly dekat F&B line. ikut katering la, gi keje kantin sekola la. so, sekeliling ak dikelilingi makanan yg sodap dan lazat yg buat tekak gatal nak makan. dapat plak ak dok dgn tok & wan masa tu, wan masak sodap so lagi tergedik2 la ak makan dgn jayanya. 

bila dapat sambung degree kat shah alam, happy kemain nye. tapi, semakin hari semakin besor ak. ada jugak ak gi gym kat sini, member saing ak boleh kurus, ak idoookkk jugak. lemak da jadi degil cam tuan dia. oh, lagi la moral dooowwwnn. pastu plak, ada sore2 beruk jantan nak ngorat ak tapi letak syarat suro kurus. bengong. lagi ak tamau...igt senang ke nak kurus? kot engko ensem gilos cam bradpitt ke faizkhaleed ke naik gak napsu nak kurus. 

hahaha..see, man will always be man. nak yg chantek, kurus, bersifat keibuan, manja gedik, yg comel tapi tapi mereka tak bother pun nak menjadi lelaki matang, bertanggungjawab, boleh memimpin. 

girls pun akan jadi girls jugak. bila ngko kata nak girl sexy, girl pun akan stat nak boy yg ensem kayo. ko adoo?? nan ado kan? ini ke ciri2 suami idaman? idookk le. bior calon tersebut Tuhan temukan dgn tidak sengajanya. buat masa ni, ak tak mencari. berkawan2 je ramai =)

masuk 2nd year kat sini, kos idop tinggi. sesak weyy... ak kan pemurah tak sampai hati konon. kengkadang laju je tangan ngulur kat makapak kat kg. even duit loan. wakakaka. sbb ak kan da besor, mesti berdikari. takyah susahkan org tua lagi. tapi ngko bila ujong sem terbuntang mata ikat perut =P

masa nilah ak decide nak wat part time kat KFC. stat saja2 sbb nak isi masa lapang time cuti sem. bila bukak sem, ak kesian depa tak cukup staff. so, ak stay. berkorban jiwa raga tok kepci ngeng ni. semata2 kerana manager yg best yg sama2 terkorban. dulu kfc sini bizi weyh. mana byk melambak gilos fast food kat seksyen 7. so, org sambut besday ke, ape ke, semua nak buat sini. ktorg la mengangkang buat order. kdg2 org yg sama opening, org sama jugak closing. sakit kaki tayah cite. tuh semua kenangan. tertido2 ak kat kepci dulu. agak2 high management kfc tau tak penat lelah staff2 bawahan ek?? bln pose tayah cakap la. dari kol 5 ptg sampai la kol 9 berdiri je amik order melambak2. pastu rehat kejap org lepas tarawikh dtg lagi mentekedarah makan. bizi sampai kol 1,2 pagi. sian budak2 ni. tu pasal ak sayang gilos kat diaorag T__T. lepas2 tu da sedap bln2 duatiga ratus masuk ak pun continue koje sampai sekarang. atleast boleh top up sikit2 belanja, sewa rumah dsbnye. 

ok, layan la gambor ak membesar dgn jayanye kat shah alam ye....T__T rasa nak hantuk lemak kat dinding bila nampak gambor lama. semangat tadee. tak kuat. someone, pls give me. ak tatau mana semangat ilang. bljr mls, eksesais malas. 

my first year

my first year + convo dip. lemak baru nak up

2nd year with puan ika

with dila my bestie dari Melaka =)

ni dgn kak mani. time Christmas pun koje

ni ms filming 3rd language ms 2nd year

dgn bebudak kfc men futsal.

gambor akhir sekali terserlah gemuknye gua...

pipi bulat. belum lagi tengok peha. menangis ko tau T__T

p/s- azam ak nak kurus balik. nak diet. tapi semangat musti berganda2 sbb lemak ak bukan main gedang besor nye...wish me luck okeih

super bass

oh, this one another song by Nicky Minaj. as always kalo tanak hantuk kepala kat dinding sbb video cam hareeem, sile dengar sajo sambil ttp mata. and yes, wajib dengar version Sophie Grace a cute little girl from Britain ni kat youtube. pastu another video on ellen show..

so cute kecik2 nyanyi mak ko upload terus fofular satu donia. ak sampai sekarang nyanyi dlm jamban je. gi karaoke pakai duit. kalo dlm bilik air sambil nyanyi boleh basuh baju. bagus kan time management ak? 

super mengarut da ni T__T

ekceli ak bukan die hard fan nicki minaj. seriously pink colour hair?? weirdo i tell u tapi dia pikir cute, takpela kan...ak sukkeeee org yg pandai rap ni. jadi stimulate. boleh tercengang. first rapper ak minat ialah abg eminem. skg lagu dia dah tah hape2, kureng la. 

oh, sila jgn try this at home kalo tanak lidah ko terbelit2 tersembur air liur ms nyanyi. seriously. ak da kena~~~

*This one is for the boys with the boomin' system

Top down, AC with the coolin' system

When he come up in the club, he be blazin' up

Got stacks on deck like he savin' up

And he ill, he real, he might got a deal

He pop bottles and he got the right kind of build

He cold, he dope, he might sell coke

He always in the air, but he never fly coach

He a muthafuckin trip, trip, sailor of the ship, ship

When he make it drip, drip kiss him on the lip, lip

That's the kind of dude I was lookin' for

And yes you'll get slapped if you're lookin' ho

I said, excuse me you're a hell of a guy

I mean my, my, my, my you're like pelican fly

I mean, you're so shy and I'm loving your tie

You're like slicker than the guy with the thing on his eye, oh

Yes I did, yes I did

Somebody please tell him who the eff I is

I am Nicki Minaj, I mack them dudes up

Back coupes up, and chuck the deuce up

Boy you got my heartbeat runnin' away

Beating like a drum and it's coming your way

Can't you hear that boom, badoom, boom

Boom, badoom, boom bass?

He got that super bass

Boom, badoom, boom

Boom, badoom, boom bass

Yeah that's that super bass

Boom, badoom, boom

Boom, badoom, boom, he got that super bass

Boom, badoom, boom

Boom, badoom, boom, yeah that's that super bass

This one is for the boys in the Polos

Entrepreneur niggas in the moguls

He could ball with the crew, he could solo

But I think I like him better when he dolo

And I think I like him better with the fitted cap on

He ain't even gotta try to put the mac on

He just gotta give me that look, when he give me that look

Then the panties comin' off, off, unh

Excuse me, you're a hell of a guy

You know I really got a thing for American guys

I mean, sigh, sickenin' eyes

I can tell that you're in touch with your feminine side, oh

Yes I did, yes I did

Somebody please tell him who the eff I is

I am Nicki Minaj, I mack them dudes up

Back coupes up, and chuck the deuce up

Boy you got my heartbeat runnin' away

Beating like a drum and it's coming your way

Can't you hear that boom, badoom, boom

Boom, badoom, boom bass?

He got that super bass

Boom, badoom, boom

Boom, badoom, boom bass

Yeah that's that super bass

Boom, badoom, boom

Boom, badoom, boom, he got that super bass

Boom, badoom, boom

Boom, badoom, boom, yeah that's that super bass

See I need you in my life for me to stay

No, no, no, no, no I know you'll stay

No, no, no, no, no don't go away

Boy you got my heartbeat runnin' away

Don't you hear that heartbeat comin' your way?

Oh it be like, boom, badoom, boom

Boom, badoom, boom bass

Can't you hear that boom, badoom, boom

Boom, badoom, boom bass?

Boy you got my heartbeat runnin' away

Beating like a drum and it's coming your way

Can't you hear that boom, badoom, boom

Boom, badoom, boom bass?

He got that super bass

Boom, badoom, boom

Boom, badoom, boom bass

Yeah that's that super bass

Boom, badoom, boom

Boom, badoom, boom, he got that super bass

Boom, badoom, boom

Boom, badoom, boom, yeah that's that super bass

*ayat censored mmg kena garis.. tak elok kamu tau...wakakakaka

eh, ni dia sophia grace brownlee. ak kalo nyanyi pun muke feeling mcm ni. lagi cute. percayoolah~~~ngeh3