there were times when i felt wrong

and done wrong.

there were times when i stood still trying to figure out things that i ever done.

there were times when i regret those things that i should or shouldn't do.

those were the time that discourage me to believe in myself any more.

to think back and realise that i'm the one that makes things happened today, that somehow make stupid mistakes, that always do things before thinking straight, i somehow find it hard to forgive myself.

call me a pathetic woman who u may thought seeking for attention,

but i'm just a lost girl trying to figure the world out. the always unknown world.

maturity does increase within times but not necessarily with age.

i still consider myself an immature human beings.

who somehow stumble herself into confusion that she helps to create.

this were one of the days that i reminisce the times that i've lost to something that just not worth it.

this were one of the days that i see a clear blue sky as rainy day.

days that other people call it gloomy.

for me it aint just gloomy. it's moody.

i cant really put my feeling into words, but the words certainly not "happy"..

i'm a pessimist who sees her glass as half empty. i'm uncertain. and confused.

help me doctor, prescribe me with an antidote. i'm afraid the confusion will turn out as a disease.

for people like me, whose sun is not so sunny, tomorrow is always day that we afraid and yesterday always have something that we regret.

pity us for being so funny.

pity us for thinking so many

pity us for we rarely can describe happy

pity us for being so clumsy

pity us for thinking we are unlucky

pity us for acting childishly.

for all we know, this world is scary...

full with angry people that always act meanly..

we might be smiling, but inside it's all burning,

struggling with all the confusing things..

so, if u happened to know someone like me, 911 it's an emergency.

if they seem lost and far from sanity, bear with them and guide them slowly.

we dont need another confusing people to judge us more, instead we need a friendly advice to let strength flow...

this is natural things that happened itself. we dont made it up we too so confuse ourselves =(