Me and communication skills? This tittle doesnt sound right, but...eh, why bother explaining?

I remembered there was once, when I was in high school,
a friend of mine asked - do you have any boyfriend?

at that time, having a relationship (lover, adik beradik angkat etc) was in trend
Biasa la budak2 baru nak naik,
and because of that, I, with no hesitation
answered "yes"
I used my cousin's name as my (fictitious) boyfriend.
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so that I look like the cool kid =P

and that girl, had stop pestering me with relationship question...

I don't really understand her motive, nor do I understand mine. hahaha

back then during school time,
I was a bit shy, don't talk much (unless I am really confident in the topic, or when I was put in duty-- I was a prefect for 2 years)
my topic of discussion only expand with persons I am comfortable with
and my 'naughtiness' lol.... would show off when I am with my partner in crime. hahaha

I talked to boys but I don't remember talking with confidence of myself,
I remembered having the confidence because I was 'anak cikgu'...

it is impossible for a shy and reserve girl, to be in a relationship at that time
but I shamelessly claimed I have one. hahaha

things improved a little when I moved to a boarding school in Terendak
I remember having a lots of conversation with my batchmate (a lot means more than before. but among my batchmate, I'm just average - both in socializing and academic). Don't get me wrong, I do make friends here and there but I....

just average.

Because I don't have that many friends, I tends to 'cling' or hold closely onto my friends. I didn't notice about this until recently. well, that would be another story.

One thing that I really sure of myself at that time, I 'talk' more on the phone or in writing.
that's when i started having 'pen pal' and cyber friends

Then i entered university and my social skills improved (a little at time).
I feel comfortable talking with stranger during our orientation week because everyone else is as new as me. I feel the 'push factor' to speak up or else I would lost my direction (UiTM Segamat was really a very big university for me, at that time. Hence, the urge to ask around and know better).

Things get better during both my diploma and degree time + side job as cashier
I made new friends, communicate with more people and even have a good relationship with lecturers...

Although I improved, there was (and still is) one thing that i failed (I have the same problem once in awhile) is to understand and realize how cruel a real world could be.

I blame my lack of social skills and lots of novel reading =P
that's why I was easily being tricked into that year of doom (well, it does sound exaggerate a bit, but I have my reason).

reminiscing, it was a really bad year for me when i was made to believe there is a fairytale-love-story
where in reality, a fairytale love story is (if it ever exist) very rare.

A real man does not promise chocolate and flowers
they bring you chocolate and flowers*
(*I don't mean chocolate and flowers literally. it is a metaphor. kalau tak explain orang ingat I am easy with chocolate and flowers. lol)

Ok, back to the main point;
although, to some people, I look like a person who can easily adapt to new environment, I don't think I really am.
I do have confidence issue.
Everyday is and always will be a learning process for me.
Usually I will spend time to observe, before making any move.
Alhamdulillah, I can say I'm not that bad when mingle around with my colleagues here in H.
Next target is how to tackle the bosses. U see it right. Plural. *insert deep sigh*

Everytime I think of quitting my role as an auditor (and jump to other functions in finance), I think back on how much personal improvement I have achieved, how much 'force' I received to improve my social and communication skills. Thou it is not perfect (yet), an improvement is still improvement deserved to be recognized =)

Today is an improvement of yesterday, and tomorrow's is today.

Wordless Wednesday

Weekend and I

Despite time spent on travelling from AG - Seremban - KL
I manage to spent about an hour or two of quality time with my girlfriends - the7girls.
We were colleagues back in KFC Seksyen 7,
hence the name.

We had a dinner @ Wadihana, Shah Alam
The "official" purpose is to celebrate Sara's and yours truly birthday
but, birthday is just an excuse.
Actually we long to gather and chat like there's no tomorrow.

The best time working was when we work together in the same shift
Especially during the peak hours
You can see us 'battling' amongst ourselves as who is the fastest in serving customer
it's always satisfied us when we can clear a very long queue during dinner time (we rarely work during lunch hour as we were still studying at that time)
but we never declare a winner =)

The sweetest memory working would be; when customer look right at you and said "thank you for serving us" or "thank you. but you look tired. chaiyok2"
haha. I added in the 'chaiyok2' but that's how it feels at that time.
it makes me happy, and I take it as a compliment, when regular customer said "Hai, lama tak Nampak"...

Those were the days when surviving (in term of monies) were a lot more important that study.
I always told my siblings that it is ok to work part time during your study
but it is not OK when u start to mess up due to bad time management.
U can have a lot of money from your job, but u'll never get back to the time where u can improve on your study, get a better grade etc.

Erm, overexcited when reminiscing like always =P

We have a very filling dinner, Alhamdulillah
and we catch up with everything we can within the 2 hours meeting,
and we took a lot of picture, which I look bigger than everyone T_____T
we had a great time to summarize.

Then, I had a lazy Sunday sitting and watching movies from laptop before travel back to Seremban, lazy-ing again before going back to A.gajah.

It's amazing how some stranger that u never thought would be very dear to you, end up as one of your close friend;
and it's amazing (with different feeling, of course) how an important people to you, can be a total stranger in just a blink of eyes (well, not literally but this is how I feel)..

Another color of my life to add in to my rainbow Monday =P

My Monday is not that blue...

So yesterday before I went back to A.gajah,
My mother told me "it is sunnah to look inside your shoes before u wear them"
and I was like "uh oh"

This morning when I'm ready for work,
I put on my shoes (ya, u guess it right. W/o looking inside it)
then suddenly my toes feel like it touch slimy thing
and guess what, it's Frog The Prince..lol
Today I learnt my lesson...

1) Always listen to your mother (well, there are things like "hey lets go to big bad wolf" but we sort of like no budget --- this is an exception to disagree with my mother)
2) Never ever kiss a frog that sat inside your shoes. Thou there might be a chance he will turn out to be a handsome prince from far far away land, just don't.


He may have smell disorder....

Like hello, shoes?

hahaha

3) When u have a hunch to wear raincoat before going to work, do follow. Your hunch is stronger than you thought.

You don't want to show up looking drench like a cat who lost its way home.

Oh well, I don't look like a cat when I drench. I look horrible. but, you get the geez.


4) If a man willing to travel all the way from Malacca to PJ after work (everyday), marry him. Coz travelling is very energy-sucking activity (I feel exhausted travelling this past weekend).

But of course, make sure he is not a married man! lol.

5) Never ever overeat on weekend (which I always forget, like I always forget about dieting. haha) coz chances are you will have trouble getting into your uniform on Monday morning..haha

Well, I already learn 5 lesson in just about few hours after waking up. While everyone else have Monday blues, I myself, strongly feels like having Monday rainbow =P

lots of color with different story.

Turning 18 for the 9th time =P

I miss writing
I am not an avid writer
but I feel comfort in writing (except for writing report . this one I have a love-hate relationship. haha)

my mother thought that i'll become a novelist
I did write a few short romantic novel yearsss back
but I didn't keep track of it.
I bet the 'novel' go missing when we moved out from one house to another.
if it is still exist, I don't think I can bear reading my 'childish' and verangan way of writing. hahaha

I consider myself as sentimental but most of the time I am very blur
blur and slow to detect any emotional changes around me
and when I realize, it is either too late or I'm too hurt to even feeling a thing

people think of me as emotionally unstable. haha
well, I cannot complaint because I cannot see from their point of view nor they can see from mine.
that's why (I think) I always end up fighting with the one I love

'growing up' take a lot of your energy and sanity
(now u know why Tanjung Rambutan is full with adult)
if there is a choice to remain as kids, i'll be the first one to sign up for it =P

but this is how The Almighty 'design' our world
we need to grow up to be His Khalifah
we need to grow up because it is our nature as human

sometimes I wonder whether I am grown up enough to be---
responsible as a daughter
responsible as a wife
responsible as a mother

growing up doesn't necessarily mean you are turning one year older,
growing up means you are mature enough to admit your mistake
and.....
mature enough to admit that you are just a human being
who make and learn from mistake...
but one thing for sure,
for me ---
age is just a number (hence the title. lol)

yearly birth celebration is just a ritual to remind everyone your age count is increasing (plus getting some present for yourself. yay!)
a ritual to remind yourself that you need to buy your own house, a car, putting aside for saving, travelling more etc
little that we (read: me) are reminded that our life is getting shorter,
shorter by a day, or a month or a year...
who knows?

happy growing up to me
as much as I like you (gila. cakap dengan diri sendiri) to have a stable life, stable career, stable emotion....
I also hope that you are being reminded that your time is near...
go on and chase your dream career, car, life or whatnot
but never forget you are always the servant of Allah...
 

Dear Ida?

 Dear Ida,

Setiap kali Isnin kau selalu rungsing
takut uniform tak muat sebab on weekend tak sedar makan banyak time kenduri kawin *yelatu*
tapi bila Berjaya sarung je kau terus lupa diri

morning break makan
lunch pun makan
belum kira in between munching
kau tak ingat ke kau kena diet? haha

ituari kan dah turun 5kg,
kenapa naik balik 6kg?
kau ni matematik kemain A tapi....tapi..
tau tak ni maksudnya apa?
u are 1kg heavier!
eh, jangan nak pura2 terperanjat la

kenapa aku je semangat nak kurus
tapi kau ni degil boleh tahan?
nak buat macam mana lagi?
takkan nak tunggu Faizkhaleed (*dia ni peminat ostronot. hihi) depan mata and paksa?
hahahamboiii dia tu......

ni nak masuk 2015 azam kurus 2014 gi mana?
ish, kau ni la kan.
pipi bulat tapi degil (ada kene mengena. percayalahhh...)

chaiyok2 dengan kerja baru
stress are allowed but don't over-stress
sikit2 dahla

kata nak kumpul duit
macam2 kononnya wishlist la, bucket list la, nak kawin list la
tapi seronok berbelanja eh.
aku peratiii je

aku harap lepas baca ni kau dapat berubah
kalau tak...

kalau tak kau bedah. pffttt....



Sincerely,
Your-slim shaddy-like-Angelina-jolie inner voice

Orang bajet busy update...huahua

Assalammualaikum....


Dah berhabuk bersawang blog ni fuh fuhh *tiup sikit*
My very first intention when I started blogging is to keep updated of my own routine,
to treat this as my virtual diary,
nampaknya tidak la konsisten.

Maybe because I lead a simple life -
Takde banyak benda nak cerita
or maybe because too often cerita aku bersifat emotional
which only sooth the heart briefly
whilst doing damage to others, i dunno maybe permanently?
or maybe i am just plain lazy? hahaha

So what happened for the past one month?

I am officially out of my comfort zone!!
Phew~~

Aku kan asyik rasa the grass is greener on the other side of the field,
Nak rasa sangat kan??
So sekarang ni biar kau rasa sendiri
But little that I know,
The other side of the field is greener but...
it also means a lot of energy required to fertilize and water the field
so I can always enjoy the greener green

Too early to pass any judgment but what I can summarize as of to date is---
there is no work with no challenges.
the difference would be on how big the challenge is...
You either take it or leave it

I am blessed because I am given the opportunity to expand
and Insyaallah I will make out the best of this opportunity,
and survive like I always did =)

2015 is just 29 days away...
I wont be declaring my resolution this year
because it is basically the same---
to improve and be a better muslim, a better person, a better friend, a good daughter.
to shed all this fat and be healthy*insert crying mode here*
eh, ni dah terbagitau ke cane ni? haha

By the way,
those yang wish to buy Treenea VCOA boleh direct ke Azzain Klang Sentral
And kalau orang Alor Gajah dan sewaktu dengannya (Yup, aku dah berhijrah kerja dan diri ke Alor Gajah)
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