2016: Ida year of exploration

2016 dah nak sampai penghujung. Tahun ni aku boleh conclude sebagai tahun "Exploration". Ni ada sebab kenapa exploration?

1. Trip to Melbourne in February :)
1st oversea trip yang aku book and plan sendiri...
Ini la permulaan aku berani book flight sendiri :P
Aku ada cerita detail dekat sini





2. Trip to Busan and Jeju in Apr/May
1st trip dengan kengkawan yang aku belajar buat trip research. The best trip so far :) *baru 2nd trip je pun duhhh~~~* Detail cerita kat sini

 

 
 

3. Surprise evaluation in June :)
This is by far, the sweetest surprise during 2 years working in H. The best gift is the unexpected gift. Aku dapat lebih dari apa yang aku jangka.Thank you Allah. 

4. Trip to Vietnam in June
1st oversea trip dengan adik beradik (tak semua la tapi). Ini tak ada entry sebab 1. tak sempat sebab aku busy menyelamatkan dunia. haha.  and 2. tak banyak nak cerita sebab ni solely trip untuk cari barang bisnes.

Aku melabur banyak untuk trip and barang2 kat sini. Bukan Berjaya sangat tapi it something worth trying :)

The best thing about Vietnam adalah kopi dia. super super love. sehari 3 kali aku minum. hehehe

Kopi susu

Kopi O

Simple coffee stall setup

5. Trip to Langkawi in September
Aku ada bias opinion terhadap Langkawi sebelum ni. Langkawi = coklat je. Padahal, sebenarnya aku yang tak open up more to explore T_T
Ni 2nd time aku sampai sini tapi balik dengan pengalaman yang berbeza dari yang first. Trip ni lead by Nurul and best giler sebab aku berjaya atasi (bukan selesaikan lol) kegayatan aku :P

Walaupun skydiving tu adalah piece of cake untuk certain people, untuk aku, ia adalah satu pencapaian yang paling hebat..haha

Laman PADI

Skywalk

Gayattt tapi bestttt :)

5. Change of Dept Head
Last October, aku dapat new boss :) 
Too early to tell samaada kita boleh work as a team or not but doakan kerjaya aku ya....
 
6. Bukit Kayu Putih
Ini satu lagi kejayaan aku mengatasi gayat. Bukit Kayu Putih ni kalau google view dia adalah sangat cantik, tapi, kena hiking naik batu yang tinggi... Untuk orang gayat macam aku, ini memang boleh kategori sebagai success! <3 font="">

 

7. First time ice skating
Selain gayat, my sense of balancing is sangat2 teruk. Tapi aku survive main ice skating with minor injury :)

 
8. Bangkok with strangers
Tahun ni adalah kali ke-3 aku jejak ke Bangkok. And semua pun sebab business trip. Tapi yang bezanya kali ni, aku open myself up untuk mingle dengan colleague dari Negara lain and with language barrier, we manage to explore Bangkok together :)

Asiatique

 



Tunggu train

Alhamdulillah atas anugerah kesihatan yang diberi untuk aku melangkah jauh. Alhamdulillah atas peluang yang Tuhan bagi untuk aku melihat keindahan di Negara luar.
Alhamdulillah atas rezeki yang Tuhan bagi untuk aku survive throughout the year ---> masih ada kerja, ada rumah untuk berteduh, ada duit nak makan dan bayar segala bil dan hutang piutang.

Alhamdulillah :)

The only resolution aku yang tak tercapai adalah untuk kurus. hahaha.... Tapi takpe, kita carry forward lagi ke tahun depan apa ada kes kan?

Azam 2017 aku:

Personal Development
1. Capai ideal weight before VIPER Challenge April 2017
2. Start saving untuk ke Mekah :)
3. Settlekan hutang 'jahat' (credit card and PTPTN)
4. Start saving untuk rumah :)
5. Stop unnecessary shopping :P
6. Tamatkan zaman bujang? doakan ya!

Career Development
1. Start new things in life (change job scope)
2. If no.1 fail, take professional paper. Be bold.

So, apa azam tahun baru korang?



The purpose of Life

Dear Ieda, 

Stop searching and questioning, because the answer has been given years ago. 

"Tidak aku ciptakan Jin dan manusia melainkan untuk menyembah aku"

"And I do not create Jinn and mankind except to worship me"

(51:56)

Happiness

We always thinks that others life is easier than us
Reality is, no life is equal to us. Similarity, maybe. But equality - NO!
Hence, comparison will never be fair.
You would never feel happy if you keep on thinking that happiness is - married to a wealthy man (for example) like what your friend end up with.
You end up forcing yourself searching for the exact wealthy man so that you can be as happy as your friend.

or you feel that the life of your-always-travel-throughout-the-year friend is a happiness, hence you fork out every last cents of your saving so that you can go around travelling (and living) like him.

Don't be fooled with what the eyes see,
Our eyes are only capable of seeing the surface, the outer part of other's life
but never what lies inside.
Having a pair of healthy eyes is amazing, but making judgment or assumption solely on what the eyes see is wrong.

Seeing with your eyes and heart would lead you to a different level of seeing...

Remember the Asmaul Husna?
He is al-Adl? Maha Adil. The outmost just of the world.
He is ar-Rahman and ar-Rahim. Maha pengasih dan Maha penyayang. The outmost kind and loving.

The more we know the meaning of Asmaul Husna
the more we know our creator
and Insyaallah (God willing) we will accept whatever destiny of our life.
but careful, accepting doesn't mean we can put all the blame of whatever bad things happen to our lives, especially things that is within our control.

Remember His word that means something like this - our fate will never be changed unless we change it ourselves.

Go to youtube and browse for Nouman Ali Khan's video on fate that is within our control and what is not; and you will understand what I've been talking writing about.

Example of fate that is beyond our control - we are born into a wealthy family or we are born as a HIV positive child.

Example of fate that is within our control - we drive carelessly and get into accident.
Accident is uncontrollable but we can reduce the risk by driving more carefully, giving signal when it is due, stop to rest when your body said so, do not sms-ing while you are driving and perfectly aware that you cant multitask etc.
we can reduce the impact by wearing seatbelt or wearing suitable protection when riding motorcycle etc etc.

Another example of fate within our control is we can choose to be happy with whatever we have or we can choose to be happy only after we get what someone else have. Both scenario require us to choose which serve us better. working hard to improve life or sitting back and enjoy life.

Both decision are perfectly fine unless you decide to sit back, but wants happiness from whatever that you don't have.

Same goes when you get envy with others life. You can opt whether to continue feeling envy or you can opt to understand that everyone's life is a roller coaster of its own.

Afterall, who said living would be easy?
Go and read Al-Quran, Al-Baqarah:155 and 214

Hence Ida, go and read and read and read and make yourself understand the Book of Guidance
and see things differently
seeing with good (not emotional) heart
and you will see how bless your life is
and you will start re-defining the meaning of life, the meaning of happiness
and you will start to appreciate whatever things that comes or leave your way.


By,
Bukan Puteri Lindungan Bulan (BPLB)

Me and communication skills? This tittle doesnt sound right, but...eh, why bother explaining?

I remembered there was once, when I was in high school,
a friend of mine asked - do you have any boyfriend?

at that time, having a relationship (lover, adik beradik angkat etc) was in trend
Biasa la budak2 baru nak naik,
and because of that, I, with no hesitation
answered "yes"
I used my cousin's name as my (fictitious) boyfriend.
.
.
.
.
.
so that I look like the cool kid =P

and that girl, had stop pestering me with relationship question...

I don't really understand her motive, nor do I understand mine. hahaha

back then during school time,
I was a bit shy, don't talk much (unless I am really confident in the topic, or when I was put in duty-- I was a prefect for 2 years)
my topic of discussion only expand with persons I am comfortable with
and my 'naughtiness' lol.... would show off when I am with my partner in crime. hahaha

I talked to boys but I don't remember talking with confidence of myself,
I remembered having the confidence because I was 'anak cikgu'...

it is impossible for a shy and reserve girl, to be in a relationship at that time
but I shamelessly claimed I have one. hahaha

things improved a little when I moved to a boarding school in Terendak
I remember having a lots of conversation with my batchmate (a lot means more than before. but among my batchmate, I'm just average - both in socializing and academic). Don't get me wrong, I do make friends here and there but I....

just average.

Because I don't have that many friends, I tends to 'cling' or hold closely onto my friends. I didn't notice about this until recently. well, that would be another story.

One thing that I really sure of myself at that time, I 'talk' more on the phone or in writing.
that's when i started having 'pen pal' and cyber friends

Then i entered university and my social skills improved (a little at time).
I feel comfortable talking with stranger during our orientation week because everyone else is as new as me. I feel the 'push factor' to speak up or else I would lost my direction (UiTM Segamat was really a very big university for me, at that time. Hence, the urge to ask around and know better).

Things get better during both my diploma and degree time + side job as cashier
I made new friends, communicate with more people and even have a good relationship with lecturers...

Although I improved, there was (and still is) one thing that i failed (I have the same problem once in awhile) is to understand and realize how cruel a real world could be.

I blame my lack of social skills and lots of novel reading =P
that's why I was easily being tricked into that year of doom (well, it does sound exaggerate a bit, but I have my reason).

reminiscing, it was a really bad year for me when i was made to believe there is a fairytale-love-story
where in reality, a fairytale love story is (if it ever exist) very rare.

A real man does not promise chocolate and flowers
they bring you chocolate and flowers*
(*I don't mean chocolate and flowers literally. it is a metaphor. kalau tak explain orang ingat I am easy with chocolate and flowers. lol)

Ok, back to the main point;
although, to some people, I look like a person who can easily adapt to new environment, I don't think I really am.
I do have confidence issue.
Everyday is and always will be a learning process for me.
Usually I will spend time to observe, before making any move.
Alhamdulillah, I can say I'm not that bad when mingle around with my colleagues here in H.
Next target is how to tackle the bosses. U see it right. Plural. *insert deep sigh*

Everytime I think of quitting my role as an auditor (and jump to other functions in finance), I think back on how much personal improvement I have achieved, how much 'force' I received to improve my social and communication skills. Thou it is not perfect (yet), an improvement is still improvement deserved to be recognized =)

Today is an improvement of yesterday, and tomorrow's is today.

Wordless Wednesday

My Monday is not that blue...

So yesterday before I went back to A.gajah,
My mother told me "it is sunnah to look inside your shoes before u wear them"
and I was like "uh oh"

This morning when I'm ready for work,
I put on my shoes (ya, u guess it right. W/o looking inside it)
then suddenly my toes feel like it touch slimy thing
and guess what, it's Frog The Prince..lol
Today I learnt my lesson...

1) Always listen to your mother (well, there are things like "hey lets go to big bad wolf" but we sort of like no budget --- this is an exception to disagree with my mother)
2) Never ever kiss a frog that sat inside your shoes. Thou there might be a chance he will turn out to be a handsome prince from far far away land, just don't.


He may have smell disorder....

Like hello, shoes?

hahaha

3) When u have a hunch to wear raincoat before going to work, do follow. Your hunch is stronger than you thought.

You don't want to show up looking drench like a cat who lost its way home.

Oh well, I don't look like a cat when I drench. I look horrible. but, you get the geez.


4) If a man willing to travel all the way from Malacca to PJ after work (everyday), marry him. Coz travelling is very energy-sucking activity (I feel exhausted travelling this past weekend).

But of course, make sure he is not a married man! lol.

5) Never ever overeat on weekend (which I always forget, like I always forget about dieting. haha) coz chances are you will have trouble getting into your uniform on Monday morning..haha

Well, I already learn 5 lesson in just about few hours after waking up. While everyone else have Monday blues, I myself, strongly feels like having Monday rainbow =P

lots of color with different story.

Life

Life is full with uncertainties

It's not the uncertainties that has been killing us

but it's the doubt, the insecurity, the fright --- 

whether it's going to work as what we want. 

And its killing me now and then

*insert loud sigh here*

tragedi

Everytime outstation, confirm makan lebih daripada biasa. 

Bfast best2 =)

Random luncheon dekat area sekitar ni pun not bad.

Lepas tu tak workout seminggu. hwaaa....

and semalam tengah iron seluar leka tak perasan iron panasss gile. setepek seluar terbakau. hwaaa....

and hotel kali ni sebelah supermarket. banyak kasut comel2.... hwaaa....

aku tak sure la kalau lawatan nak beli seluar nanti akan jadi lawatan seluar dan kasut. dan henbeg ke. henbeg RM25 je comel2. 

ni baru satu hari. belum satu minggu.

KSL City and Resort i hetchuu!!

random #5

i see faces

and i learnt about people from what's written in their face

i can see they're happy, when they put on smile

i can see they're sad, when their eyes in tears

and that's the most that i can know about someone.

i see faces but never the heart

i see expression but never true emotion

i'm far from a mind reader

and i dont think i'm good at telepathy

i define things from the way i see it

hence i might get confused from the real, actual meaning

u cant expect me to really understand everything

when the last thing u do is saying nothing

this is not a statement of 'sigh'

this is a thankful statement, for allowing me to clarify

and for the time spent explaining everything

thank you again for your understanding.

Random #4

antara

Leessang Kang Gary

dengan 

Bigbang TOP

Dua2 rapper ni memang aku tengah gila

lagu jadi sedap bila kau tau and paham lirik. so, sambil dengar sambil tenung lirik

memang jatuh chenta.... ;P

Tapi kalau ikut kasih sayaang, ada sedikit bias

of course yang ni lebih sikit

sebab beliau hensem sikit...wahaha....

Random #3

Lepas masuk alam kerja, stay up sampai 5,6 pagi mesti rasa mabuk

Padahal time study, rilek je.... kalau exam kol 8 pagi, langsung tak tido

after exam baru bantai tido....

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Lepas masuk alam kerja, terus rasa dewasa gile dengan adik2.

Kemain lagi nasihat itu ini konon taknak diaorang belajar the hard way...

ironinya, hati tetap geram2 bila orang panggil hakak or auntie. 

separuh diri je merasa dewasa. separuh lagi masih mengharap remaja...puiii...

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dulu sendiri pernah wish supaya cepat2 la besar dan kerja...

if only i knew better- zaman orang 'dewasa' ni bukan madu semata. 

mungkin aku akan lebih menikmati usia. 

seperti nasyid RAIHAN- ingat 5 perkara sebelum 5 perkara 'muda sebelum tua'

Random #2

Jika sejarah itu tidak berapa manis

jangan sesekali menjenggukan diri

kerna mungkin kamu akan terluka sendiri

dan untuk mengexplain serta memujuk diri,  kau pasti tidak mampu.

lebih baik pura-pura tak tahu

*hati sayu tetiba

Random # 1

FB adalah medium communication yang pada aku sangat penting. 

Member mana yang dah kawin, member mana yang dah ada anak semua fb la yang banyak bagitau

nak harap aku sendiri gi contact sorang2, chit chatting adalah sangat payoh

*macam kau sorang bizi kennn......*

Aku paling suka tengok orang punya gambar. Be it cantik ke, hensem ke, duck face ke semua aku tengok

Kalau nak rasa aku ni stalker, silakan...hahaha...

So, bila stranger tetiba msg konon nak kenal. nak kawan. 

dan oleh kerana diri ini gatai melayan taknak digelar sombong, kita sambut la salam kenal orang dengan baik

lagi2 bila tengok ada mutual friend. takde la perasaan was2 lagi. 

maka conversation pun terjadii...

hi leh kenal.

nama tengku **** 

boleh panggil tengku or ****

male (pfftt.....perlu ke nak bgtau? mcmkan tak leh detect dari nama kau)

umur lebih kurang la 24

tapi bila dilayan, makin lain jadinya. sesuatuu je. 

tetiba nak kenal lebih rapat la hapa la. eh. tadi kau kata nak kawan2 aje kan??

Lepas tu suruh approve friend la hapa la. 

Baiklah. saya approve. 

Lepas tu gambo sendiri takde... yileekk! langsung nehi takde. 

Letak gambar robot la, apa la...

ape ke hal la nak kawan tapi memalu nak tunjuk diri sendiri??

lain la kalau kau ada niat lain kan?? eh. 

lagi laaa aku terasa sesuatu...

Bila ditanya, boleh jawab "laa....nak gambar ke. kenapa tak request?"

tetiba terasa diri ini sangat teruk. haihhh....

sendiri letak la bro. baru la tau berkawan dengan manusia ke, robot ke, komputer ke apa.

ini common sense kot. atleast bagi aku. 

melainkan engkau ni ada niat pelik2. hoihh...anti betul. 

ketahuilah adik2, setelah kerja, umor pun dah nak masuk suku abad, akak tak kosser nak main teka teki dengan orang yang tidak berwajah ni. 

lagi2 bila mood aku masih kelaut, lagiiii la tak kosser.... 

and, ya profile picture aku pernah letak gambar TOP *auwww....tetiba

tapi kan takde la langsung takde gambar diri sendiri. 

aku punya pemikiran: Facebook sendiri, gambar sendiri mesti ada. yeah!