man in pink is cute

simple, cute,funny and smells nice. its among the criteria i'm looking on a man. i dont really believe in lovey dovey thingy that most couple does know. coz, being realistic as i am, i think that love shouldnt be waste to someone that u dont think worth it. that u give a 2nd thought when it comes to "serious business". oh yes, about the smell, i want to enjoy time spent with him so he needs to smell nice so everytime spent is a time to be remembered. haha....yes, u can argue that having no boyfriend is easy for me to point out the do's and the donts. believe me, i've pass that experience once. i drained out my energy but it doesnt last.that's why i put extra precaution now..=P

among other things i seriously take into consideration is the height. must be fairly tall so i wont overshadow him. i doesnt want to appear the "tough guy" beside him. he also must be ambitious. i dont mean like going to moon to catch some stars for me..naahhh, that's lame. i meant guy that able to control his present and see his future. he also need to see his women as his companion rather than bedtime friend only. 

things that would definitely cause him several yards away from me is not-so-good smell especially when it mix with cigar's smoke. and those that have too high of self-esteem and self-proclaim. always boosting about his achievement, his ability to do this and that and blah blah blah like there's no other things to story about. huuu...boringggg.....i'm supposed be in love with u. not ur fictitious story. 

there's so much of the do's and the dont's  but i think the first impression has been covered above. but the most essential point in relationship would be chemistry. how u can accept the flaw of ur significant other. as for me, i dont have the time to actually observe around and test one guy and another. i just want to find the one and only one mr right and settle down forever. 

weirdo eh? haha...yesza ^__^

Dangerous obesity

Dangerous obesity

dugaan

3 hari ni balik lewat malam sebab kerja. *sigh* 

cane nak study, tanpa keje sgt and dapat settlekan semua hutang or tanggungan? 

money is not everything but most of the things need money. 

kelmarin, org celcom call me for bil yg tertangguh yg ak tak pernah guna pun. bil yg ex ak guna tapi pakai nama ak yg end up dia tak bayar pun. tambah lagi masalah. bukan nak ngeluh ke apa, tapi at times when ak rasa da boleh survive dgn keje few hours a week, da berubah jadi susah. salah ak jgk sbb pcy kan sgt insan bernama lelaki ni. ms tu percaya gile sampai sanggup buat ape saje. duit pun dia penah pinjam 1k tapi tak pernah pulang.  da 4 tahun da. ak happy tak ingat si gila tu. hidup ke mati ke ak pun tatau. tapi suddenly kena macam ni mmg ak sedih la. tapi takpela, nak meraung pun bukan boleh buat ape. so, baik ak byr je sikit2 mana termampu. ape dia buat pada ak atau sesapa yg lain, biar la urusan dia dgn Allah. harapnya balasan dia setimpal la buat ak mcm ni. 

ni tadi ms kt tmpt keje, lutut terseliuh. tulang kat lutut tu mcm tergelincir sikit dari tmpt dia. sakit woooo!!!! jalan mmg seret kaki la. nasib ada org tolong urut jap tadi. ok sikit nak gerak. tapi still sakit bila nak ober2 ni..heeee....tula, lately ak byk gerak kot. treadmill, aerobik, nek tangga tgkt 8 hmpr tiap hari gi kelas.so, kaki tersayang ni terkejut la. bila mcm tu, benda kecik pun boleh  buat terseliuh.

dugaan....

oh...

dugaan....

ak mintak supaya ditabahkan hati hadapi segala cabaran, and maybe ni la ujian terbaik utk ketabahan hati T_____T

da tak larat nak keje lagi....menghitung hari je nak blah. moga after hbs bljr terus dapat keje. KFC Seksyen 7, mmg ak tak sanggup da. penat dia mmg kaw2 punya.... 

okla, time to sleep. hari esok, masih teka teki. ya,semoga sy survive hari esok. meniti hari2 sehingga tiada lagi hari. kekuatan? stay la. jgn lari ok =)

of external auditor and life

Hilwani Hariri. motherly look and act. soft spoken and every detail come from her mouth is full with experience. buy things that u happy of. ignore those voices arguing whether it is original or not. whether it is expensive or not. they have nothing to do over your things. but what important is, u re happy wearing it. aaahhh, the way she shows her necklace. i dont give a damn whether it's original or not. i just see they fit together nicely. and that is very comforting view =)

      oh, and yeah we do complaint about not having our weekends. taken by the faculty for their activities. her answer was simple "treat your everyday as your sunday. getting into the working phase, u'll find ur weekend fully booked. literally, u dont have one." and she smiles =) but, what really matters is how u can change the way u see differently. "i dont consider myself waking up early for work. i'm just doing my hobby and i love it. i enjoy every single moment doing it. and u should too. please consider studying is ur hobby and u'll find urself enjoy doing ur hobby."

a woman with philosophy. i adore her so much. she is so calm that never once i saw her raise her voice nor blabbing us about not doing homework. she just smile and advice. u just dont know how to reject her saying.
life is too short to worry. too short to really care others' saying. too short not to take chances and try. spending life mainly for grieving is just a waste. live life to ur best. follow what u truly believe. be urself, never somebody else.

the big bad wolf day

lets start the day at 8am..

I woke up early which is unusual for me unless there is something important to do. I woke up  for PPKP. a compulsory program for all semester. and for final semester, it was held on 15-16th Oct. There go my weekend =(

  Anyway, the program end early at 1 o'clock which is just nice for me to vrrooomm away to Serdang. On the way back home @ Pusat Komersial, seksyen 7, s.alam  we stop to buy some snacks at giant and to my surprise it raining cats and dogs when i was just finish with snachopping.... we was stuck for like half an hour before we decide to just redah je hujan. pening kepala @__@ bila kena hujan.hahaha...cari pasal sgt kan.

its nearly 4 until the rain stops and yaaayy!! without further delay, i start my engine and vroom away to Serdang-alone! thou i'm not so sure the exact way as google maps says to use LDP but i just use my usual way back to Seremban. that's happened when technology left u wayyyyy back. i should install gprs on my phone one day.. one day ppl..haha...cliche as it sound, frankly speaking i'm not an IT freak..=P

arrived at UPM 30-45minutes after but i didnt find any sign of Big Bad Wolf!! i was like what? most of the road in UPM are one way bcoz of the convocation ceremony....sempat jugak pusing2 padang, jeling2 sportsmen yg agak tough tgh main rugby la, football la, tennis la.. hahaha until i was like pusing and pusing balik the same place (UPM is such a huge varsity. damn! it was hard if u r not familiar with it). kerana takmau dilabel si bodoh sombong, i stop to ask one of the security guard on duty about MAEPS. he said " ala, senang je follow sign MARDI" and i was like " what? punye banyak kali nmpk sign MARDI" and yeah, i didnt know T_____T
luckily sbb rempit sajo, dapatla parking atas so near to the entrance..hehe =) and masuk2 da feel the adrenalin running in my bodieh...yeah! excited kot sbb byk novels. lots and lots of em. i go from row to row, from section to section nasib bawak beg extra so throw anything in it and just lalalalaa jalan balik.. biography, cookery, novels mcm2 ada. tapi i stuck most of the time kat novels section la..heeeee....biography serious2 thingy ni adoiii belum ada guts nak baca T____T owh, ieda so terukk!!
tapi tula saya, mau jadi serius tapi tamau amik tau hal2 semasa...ok, back to dreamland, mcm boleh mandi buku kat situ and the price was sooooo damn cheap ok! Nora roberts collection semua mostly sold at RM8. what a bargain!! before pergi budget dalam 5,6 books maximum tapi sekali stuck ada dlm 30 jugak la dalam tangan. wahahaha...berat! tapi that doesnt stop me from keep going and smell the roses..eh, silap smell the books. sangat la kan...the DJ, yes they got DJ yg punya voice so sexy that makes the evening more exciting, keep announcing how many hours left....tak sedar wooo jalan2 situ nearly 4 hours...the hall was sooo big as big as one football field i guess.. 2 kali i stop to re-select the books because 1) beg suda melimpah ruah dgn berat toksah cakap 2) sebab keep on pikir naik motor muat ke nak sumbat box. heavy duty bag pack tak bawak plak. gedik bwk handbag yg akhirnya menyesal =P

tapi tula, da buat screening pun still, bila continue walking ada je interesting books for grab. buat lagi anor screening. huwaaaa....then, bila DJ da announce half an hour left before end of the fair of the year, baru feel the coldness of the night. hall tu beraircond and sy seorg yg takde bulu tangan or kaki and amat anti rasa sejuk terlampau, baru terasa sejuknya dari hujung rambut ke hujung kaki. 12 books in total ready for payment...*sigh* nak main2, jalan2 lagi..huuu..why o why la tak pergi awl2... kuar hall je da gelap gulita. dang! mula risau mana jalan balik...no security guards to ask to and i was like, rilex ida. rilex. use ur 6th sense. hahaha...nampak sign ke puchong terus rasa selamat..phewwww.....highway SKVE if i'm not mistaken. go straight and see most of the exit on the signboard were blank out except for IPOH...lalu tol ayer hitam da bedetup jantung. haha...mcm mana kalo sesat ni weeyyyy??? dang! this highway still in construction kot sbb i'm 100% sure kuar UPM tadi tulis hala ke s.alam, tapi exit2 byk tak bukak lagi...lastly, exit saujana putra masuk ELITE kot. kot ok. tak sure sbb i always tot all highways are the same. tatau nak beza2 kan..mcm berpusing balik kot. lalu dpn exit serdang balik...hwaa...tapi takpela going straight je no belok2 nampak la sign ke s.alam. terus lega merempit dgn 100km/ph

all and all, sampai rumah 10 lebih dengan sejuk terlampau. kol 11 da pass out. tidooo sebab gile tak larat. overall, an exciting journey kot. book fair mcm ni mmg kena gi awal baru u really puas hati. hopefully next year i'll not miss out or lambat tau lagi...huuu....nway, credit to Afiq Redzuan and some of my FB friends yg dok cerita pasal buku and the big bad wolf sampai i nekad nak check it out sendiri...
Ahad tak kerja, so hati banyak gembira.....

7th ramadhan

it was my 5th weeks going back and forth from seremban-shah alam, shalam-seremban. (refer to google about 81.9 km)

here a brief introduction-

i work part time at KFC. during the semester break, i was requested to take care of both my grandparents as my nanny operate her left eye and she wish to celebrate this Eid here at seremban. as Star 2, my salary has increase to RM4.++ per hour and i hope to remain it that way until next semester. if i took 2 month UPL, i'll be considered quit and i'll need to start all over again. then, i decide to work on weekend as my aunties and uncles can look after their parents while i'm at work.

on the 5th weekend, it's the 1st week of Ramadhan. almost everyday from monday to friday, i'll woke up around 4am, "sahur" and around 6 or 7 am i'll go to my parents' house and send my brother to "Pusat Dalam Komuniti"....balik tu mandikan atok uruskan dia makan, jemur kain etc, i then amik abang around 12. balik terus prepare nak masak and bagi atok makan. gitu gini malam baru rehat tido...maybe this week sgt hectic yang membuat my body stress.

then, last friday going back to shah alam utk wat part time...and on sunday, after kerja

friday- 11pm until 8am

saturday- 3pm until 12 am

sunday- 7am until 4pm

balik seremban semula...takde rehat as i was rushing takot my aunt tgu lama..imagine how much sleep i get especially during the fast month...huhhhh.........

tgh2 rempits, suddenly tak sedar. sedar kejap masa tgh sliding dekat lurah tepi jalan raya but i tot it was just a dream. and i continue fall into a deep sleep. tak lama lepas tu org ramai kerumun..dgn anggota paramedik.

guy 1- "dik, bangun2 awk accident"

me- "ha, yeke? call umi" >>>>referring to my fon.

pastu tak sedar dah naik ambulance. sedar jap masa makcik ckp "tula da ckp toksah keje..bla..bla..bla"

......tak sedar semula.....

my jeans and swater were rip off by the MA..tak sedar jugak

then, diaorg buat x-ray kepala, perut, tgn etc etc...takut any fracture...

pastu DR tekan2 my tummy takut ada organ luka..then scan mcm scan baby tu tgk some 'fluid' bwh tulang rusuk kiri and buat CT Scan...masuk la zon merah kejap..next thing i know i was in wad 8B, katil 22. masuk air, and one fluid i cant remember its name sbb tekanan darah rendah. leher kena pakai collar.

kena masuk O2 sbb O2 dlm darah rendah..tak blh makan and minum sbb DR takut nti air masuk lung and kalo makan muntah-balik-tapi-tak-keluar-habis and affect the lung.

semalam DR Rakesh pakar tulang tengok and he said that no fracture. just maybe sakit sebab hentakan/ tekanan dpd pemakaian helmet. my collar was removed and i can eat..

after that, DR suro try jalan2 exercise and tengok if da ok semua..then probably tuesday(today) will be discharge.

hari ni, pakai soft collar because i feel very stiff bila nak pusing kiri kanan...

DR suggest pakai until the pain relief and he said the pain will be there for quite some time jugak la...any fluid and O2 mmg da removed.

hari ni kol 4 i discharged. lebam2 obvious dekat lengan kiri...luka terseret sikit kat tangan kanan. and atas bibir bengkak.

lebam tu lebih kurang mcm gini la jgk:-

Syukur kepadaNya, boleh gerak, boleh jalan, boleh cakap mcm biasa...muka wlpn kurang cun still blh baik punye..it's a reminder for me and everyone else -DO NOT OVERWORK YOURSELF!!!

rasa sakit bila nak gerakkan tangan kiri mmg ya rabbi sbb lebam dia besar..tak boleh la nak main swing je tangan sesuka hati. nak gerak kan leher pun ssh...tokleh nak angguk2 geleng2 sesuka hati je.

and most of all, it is a relief bila my boyfie wave 110 selamat...cermin kiri and kanan je patah..sikit calar balar and few skru hilang. herot sikit je tapi boleh jalan mcm biasa...

pesanan dari penaja- pakai la pakaian yg menutup dan cover segalanya. as for me, i wore a jeans with sweater and hand glove and of course helmet to minimise the injury that may occur during the bad day. we never knew. just be prepared. and, pls dont push yourself. redha mungkin rezeki tuhan lebih besar yg kita tak duga...

To those yang ada and call the ambulance around 5pm-6pm dekat dengan hentian Nilai at PLUS Highway, your kindness are relly appreciated...i really tak larat nak bangun masa tu.

to all the nurses and doctor yg malam tengok ada, esoknye pun tengok ada, i'm really greatful sebab w/out you alls tatau la nasib org mcm i ni...and to those staff dkt A&E, ZON MERAH and WAD 8B, Hospital Tuanku Jaafar Seremban----Thanks a lot...

kepada yang lain- drive carefully..jgn ingat org tersyg sgt sbb because ingat2 la i rushing nak balik and tak cukup rehat...

*sigh*

baru sampai shah alam dari seremban jam 9 mlm tadi...lega tak terkira..merempit selama 2 jam bukan perkara yg fun..memerlukan fokus, dan semangat yang jitu...susu haruslah minum untuk menjaga tulang yg terpaksa berdepan dgn kesejukan semasa merempit. semoga pengorbanan ini, bernilai disisiNya...hari ni kecik ati sikit. mungkin kerana pengaruh bulan purnama atau mungkin kerana perasaan ini telah ku tahan sejak kecik lagi. kecik ati lumrah biasa...tapi harus ku sedar dia org tua yang sudah terbiasa dengan caranya...

berhenti kerja.

mudahnya membuat penutup untuk suatu bebanan. tapi menjadi ieda yg ini, masa depan harus aku timbang.. buruk baik nya keputusanku sekarang, biarlah tiada sesalan kemudian. gaji ku sebagai part time di s7 sudah meningkat.. berbaloi dgn pengorbanan selama setahun lebih berkhidmat utk atok colonel. Boyfriend baru yg dibeli januari lepas bayaran ansuran rm140. ku lamar jugak boyfriend ku wave 110 untuk kemudahan harian semasa praktikal lepas. Nahh, lepas praktikal masih kena bayar ansuran. rumah sewa, bulan2 termasuk api air ada dalam rm150. makan pakai ku di bumi org. buku, buku dan buku serta stationery, maintenance motor, minyak motor, sakit pening dll adalah dalam rm150 sebulan. itu baru anggaran. pinjaman ASNB telah terlajak buat. berat sikit nak bayar bulan2 tapi pikir panjang, bila seru kahwin dh smpi 5 thn lagi ke, pinjaman tu boleh ku tebus buat belanja kawin....takyah ssh2 pikir...lain la mmg da muktamad ak kawin dgn millionaire.

boyfriend 140

rumah dsb 150

maintenance dll 150

ASNB 260

TOTAL 700

SEE!! i need at least rm700 for my total expenses... ptptn?? nett yg dpt dlm rm2800 per semester...or 400++ per month.. i want to continue working part time. and with that, it's a loss if i surrender the rm4.80 per hour now, so that i could take care of my grandparents full time in this 2 months and START ALL OVER AGAIN working at s7. penat!! penat menggapai bintang bila sendirian. mereka pandai berkata, bercakap apa saja..realitinya??? aku menanggung seorg diri...selain ptptn, i DONT HAVE ANY OTHER SOURCE OF INCOME...keluarga ak besar.14 of us with 1 breadwinner. i'm being independent and survive sendiri. semua yg berkata, tahukah mereka how would i feel tersepit disini??

friday evening until sunday evening that i need to continue working here kalau taknak dikira berhenti kerja sebab cuti lama sangat. banyak sangat ke aku mintak?? ssh sgt ke the 10 of u discuss and be there for your own parents?? bila lagi...

in the end, i become helpless~~~

p/s-owh ya! pasal kecik ati tu, pasal org lain...nvm, beliau da tua. mungkin da terbiasa bersikap 'pilih kasih' sejak dulu lagi...yup, children have a strong memory and i'm one of them. ak simpan kot.....sampai sekarang..adeehhhhh:(