WHAT AM I DOING HERE????????

the part where i knew nothing of the things that i'm doing. and that sucks big time. i feel like leaving this place and let the two seniors handle things by themselves which they already have and which is the reason why i feel this way. i waited like beruks here and that guy simply boleh lupa ke? chehhh!!! kalo tak sure, just tell me. da la aku memang tengah blurr ni. tetiba bila mintak something, dia boleh plak tak hingat. aku hangin disini yer =((

progress report?

my second step of bertapa is by deactivate my fb account
tapi yang ni lagi tricky
sebab tangan ni gatal je nak log in
yelah, salah kan tangan. takkan nak salahkan diri sendiri T__T hewhew
ok, itu takpela kot.
yang penting, aku tadee la nak attached kan diri dengan fb sangat
so, feel tu tenang sikit
and macam kebetulan je
internet rumah aku tadee
so, mmg Tuhan tu ada perancangan untuk aku
kalo ade tenet kang, manjang nak stalk orang
chaiittt!!!

da balik dari jb ritu
best la jugak dapat experience baru
tetiba rasa cam nak stay jb je
tapi sana cost of living mahal ok
aku tau sebab pernah duduk situ jap
so, jb da kena strike off dpd possible migrate place
lagipun aku rasa cam nak duduk pulau2
hurm...kena wat research lebih ni..heeee~~

ni update dari tempat client.
dua2 senior aku da chow
tinggal la aku dengan file HACCP
yup, i odit food manufacture kali ni
so, kena la get familiar with terms apekejadah yang diguna pakai
ni da start rasa kekurangan kat diri sendiri
main reason being that i cant speak mandarin/ cantonese
macam alien tahu bila mereka speaking
i understand that conversation can easily done bila sama2 bahasa
and client akan lebih open macam tu
so, its ok la kan
cuma aku je la yang tak ok
kena gi amik language class..hewhew
ritu amik french
pastu tak praktis
so, habis2 aku paham Je taime, chacuterier
tu pun eja berterabur T__T

slowly aku da nampak ape aku patut buat
cuma progress memang slow
and savings! ye, kena start sekarang
kalo tak, matiklaaa
kata nak bawak diri jauh2
pastu tadee orang sponsor
harusla menabung dari sekarang...

okla, sekian update for today
chioww~~

berlapang dada la ida

dengan apa yang berlaku

Allah takkan menguji sesuatu yang kita tak dapat hadapi

dan mana mungkin fair comparison boleh dibuat

antara mereka mereka dan mereka

kerana pada seseorang itu, ada kekuatan tersendiri

mungkin apa yang mereka hadapi, kau takkan berjaya lalui

maka, don't judge

kerana manusia itu sama, disisiNya

private kan blog adalah step yang begitu tricky untuk hati ini

tapi one step has to be taken at a time

dan step ini adalah yang pertama

sebelum pergi lebih jauh

betul la aku tak tipu bila kata aku gembira dengan keadaan kamu

tapi that's one thing

hati yang terkilan itu another thing

bukan terkilan sebab segala rasa hati ini betul

tapi terkilan kerana aku bukan penyumbang apa2

lebih pada penyumbang rasa bersalah kau

dan mungkin kacau daun jugak

hehehe...

tanak la serabutkan kepala dengan sapa dulu, sapa kemudian

sebab sesuatu keputusan itu bukan aku sorang berhak buat

kamu dan kamu pun ada hak untuk berkata.

dan aku telah laksanakan hak itu

dan aku redha, andai aku bukan kawan yang terbaik

actually, aku planning nak bawa diri

tenangkan hati dengan segala rasa terkilan ke ape ke ni

tipulah kan kalo kata tak sedih langsung bila dengar the other side point of view

tapi aku harus adil la kan untuk tak judge

atau buat korang serabut

benda kecik bagi kau sebab kau nampak perkara itu dari ur point of view

tapi tak nampak from mine

and u cant really see it

sebab hati kita lain2

dan aku pun tak boleh tengok yours

sebab hati itu kau punya

mungkin ada lagi yang kau simpan

chopp!! cukupla dengan assumption2 ni semua

baik aku fikir untuk diri sendiri

hurmmm...

aku ada planning nak berhijrah

ke mana, dengan siapa, buat apa itu semua belum tentu

baru dekat initial stage of planning katonyo

kalo ada rezeki kat mana2

and jika Tuhan izikan aku gi jauh

maka adalah tu jalan untuk aku gi

kalau tak, biar jela aku bertapa kat mana2 area yang dekat2

macam kat batu caves ke..hehehe

banyak benda aku nak consider before actually bertindak

antaranya adalah family aku

yelah, dengan keadaan sekarang yang agak goyah ni

macam mana lah kan aku nak  betul2 bertindak

ikutkan nak je packing2 barang pastu berambus. heh

tapi gilo ape

aku bukan la orang yang adventurous sampai macam tu sekali kan

pentakut okeih saya kot2 tetiba kena jual ke kan

tadi adik aku call

nak pinjam duit katanya

sesak sangat katanya

sedih okeih sebab aku pun pernah study, tak sampai setahun pun aku grad

so, aku boleh paham la kan sesak dia macam mana

tapi bezanya aku kerja part time

so, makanan takde masalah nak cari mana

itu yang badan tetap makin besar dengan jayanya

adik aku on the other hand, terpaksa makan megi

hold on okeih! 

tersentap aku bila rm50 pun tableh nak hulur

gaji nampak la cam boleh tahan

tapi sebenarnye tak tahan....

 adalah few people yang ajak aku join bisnes katanye

kalo bisnes yang betul2 sendiri setup

takpe jugak.

ini bisnes MLM.... memang la rezeki tu milik Allah

tapi aku da pernah cuba..dan aku tak berani lagi nak cuba

aku bukan jenis yang suka nak promote2 orang masok or jual barang yang melampau mahal harga dia

silap haribulan aku makin rugi

namau la. cukup la aku rasa bersalah dengan member2 aku sebab diaorang tableh rolling modal.

aku kena take part of the blame la sebab aku yang introduce.hewhew

aku bukan nak mengeluh ke apa kat sini

sedih tu tipu la kalo kata tak

cuma aku need a hug from a friend

tapi mereka pun maybe tengah happy/bergundah gulana dengan life sendiri

takkan aku nak kacau

lagipun aku bukan la kawan yang baik pun nak gedik2 macam ni

itu yang rasa nak terbang jauh2

biar betul2 feel yang aku tadee sesape

so, kalo sedih, tadee la sedih gila.

dan mungkin bila da jauh dari semua ni

aku boleh belajar balik siapa aku

boleh cari siapa aku

apa yang aku nak, apa yang aku cari...

dan bila berdepan dengan semua ni

i didnt have much choice other than being strong

kalau aku tak atleast pretend to be strong, 

aku takut aku pun tableh  tahan dengan diri sendiri dan akhirnya collapse

nasib la blog ni tengah private

sebab masa2 macam ni aku lebih senang berkata2 melalui tulisan

and knowing that this is exclusively for ur own reading, then rasa selamat

tanpa ada apa2 judgement or rasa seperti tengah distalker oleh orang2

bukan la nak perasan ke apa

tapi pageview aku tak pernah nye tak bergerak.

kengkadang 1 or 2 kali sehari

tu pun da scary

huhu. yela aku kan macam gilo sikit kat sini

tetiba orang tengok malus pulak. haha. gilo

back to being away

aku memang nak sangat

tak tahan sebenarnye 

kot aku boleh korek hati ni tinggalkan, lagi bagus

sebab dari hati la macam2 perasaan timbul

tertacing la, emo la. tak bagus ok untuk kesihatan mental aku dan orang sekeliling

untuk hari ni, 

aku berdoa semoga dipermudahkan jalan untuk aku selesaikan dugaan ni

dan semoga aku lebih tabah hadapi semua ni

dan semoga murah rezeki. amin

currently at jaybee

things were getting better

but it's too soon to tell

nanti terlebih eksaited

end up terlebih kecewa

oh, itu kita tidak mahu.

maka buat masa ni saya akan shadaap

sebelum sesuatu benda slip off from otak berkarat ini
maka mari tulis untuk kenang kenangan
seriously.
aku kemas2 buku2 ritu
and find satu buku ni that i used to scribble notes or random things that happen
it happened that that book does have one or two notes of me during the difficult period
and i was like "wahh...it has been ages"
dan dari situ saya belajar tentang siapa ida balik
oh, i shud start digging for more note..ngeee
itu pasal la pentingnya nak tulis ni
mana tau one fine day
masa tengah minum kopi gelak2 dengan incik suami ke
dengan anak pat lima orang ke
then baca balik mesti rasa amaze, pelik dan eksaited



Friday the 14th.
one of the many days that i'll remember the most
happy in tears. sobs.
walaupun tak semua simpulan dapat dileraikan
atleast saya bukan hidup dalam shadow yang hollow sangat
dan well, i had a very good intuition. eh? orang melayu kata rasa hati
or 6th sense

saya tadee anyone special
or memang tak rapat sangat dengan family
so, saya lebih pada kawan2
and i have a few that's so dearest to me
bila da very dearest tu, meaning saya sangat la appreciate dan sayang
dan saya punya emotion towards mereka lain

macam dulu masa kat mrsm pun ada sorang ni
yang saya sangat2 selesa dengan dia
cerita macam2 itu ini
thou kitaorang bukan jenis kepit sentiasa
we do have separate life. dia ada kengkawan dia and i have mine
tapi bila jumpa, kita adalah best friend forever. cheeeh
yela, lain orang lain definitions of BFF nye kan.
masa sekolah kat Klana Petra dulu pun sama.
ad sorang memang betul2 rapat nye la
siap tido sekatil sebab dok asrama sama
to the extent kitaorang punye period cycle pun boleh sama tau
haha...serius. even taste makan pun sama. aktiviti sama.
cuma yang lain taste boys je masa tu lain2...haha...
wahh...rindunye beliau. sekarang da ada anak 2 da.
serius gile kan???

well, aku bukan nak cerita tu semua
my point is, bila da sangat close gile
saya. diulangi ye. SAYA akan sampai tahap jeles dengan kawan lain (orang lain maybe rasa lain2 ok. so dont question it ye..)
mcam bercinta pun ada kan. tapi aku bukan les
kalo macam dia buat benda2 tak ajak saya, saya merajuk
cis. macam bodoh je perangai dulu2

hari jumaat itu hari
terjawab la semua rasa yang ada ni
semua sixth sense ke, perasaan cam "eh, dia ni macam tuuutt je"
semua da terjawab
dan hampir semua yang saya assume tu ada la benar2 terjadi
jangan la tanya macam mana boleh betul
sebab saya pun tatau
rasa tu memang terus ada

i hope it explain a bit why i feel this and that selama ni
maka, saya ada lah insan yang gembira
kerana saksikan kawan sendiri gembira
like i said last week la kan
walaupun truth does hurt
tapi atleast
i hurt with honesty
i hurt with dignity
tak la tercalar maruah bila terpaksa assume dan menanti2 jawapan cam beruk
lepas tu sendiri sentap

all and all
saya tak rasa menyesal sebab tahu
kerana indirectly sebenarnya saya memang da tahu
cuma kena ada confirmation je
i know it. and u know that i know it. and i know that u know about me knowing it.
nak main hide and seek kononnye
no need okieh
and thanks a lot
saya rasa sedikit ringan. not literally in my weight la kan. tapi emotionally, mentally da rasa lega
u have the choice to not to tell. because in the other hand, u have somebody else heart to take care of.
but instead u choose to tell me and i really appreciate it
thanks a lot kerana buat aku rasa yang aku ni betul2 kawan kau
not someone that u just know
walaupun bukan bff ke hape, tapi kawan pun ok kan. taleh nak demand lebih.

hopefully
kita masih remain friend
walau dimana kita berada
walau aku kat utara, ko kat selatan ke
aku kat laut ko kat darat ke
hopefully tadela rasa perlu hide and seek
and segan2 okieh
u can just tell me anything straight to my face
contoh macam saya buat salah ke
sebab kengkadang i'm just simply blur
tak perasan.

oklah. harus tidoo ni
i have a longg day to go =)

jam da dekat kol 1 pagi
tapi aku baru je habiskan nasi goreng
simple je- nasi, telur, ikan bilis, bawang and cili.
terasa macam dolu2..

dulu aku malam2 selaluu je lapar
rumah aku jarang nak ada biskut2 ke jajan ke benda2 simple nak kunyah2
memang standby barang2 basic je- bawang, cili api, ikan bilis, nasi
so, bila ko da rasa lapar yang amat
and satu rumah pun da lena tidoo
maka, nak tanak aku gigihkan diri jugak tumbuk ape yang ada
campak2 dan maka jadilah nasi goreng...
sedapp makan panas2
tak sedapp pun, sebab panas2 dan lapar, maka still akan terasa nikmat

and my "dulu" is as in 7,8,9 years ago
masa tu badan adalah kecik
metabolisma tinggi. makan banyak, tak efek sangat
so, tadee la rasa bersalah sangat dengan diri sendiri
tapi sekarang. alamak. gulp....
there goes my diet plan...T________T

few days ni, aku rasa a bit off
tak sure. tak tau. tak pasti
like something is missing
and i'm planning of searching my old self back
then again, i'm not that strong
and having to have lost few reasons of being strong
lagi la rasa depressing
ke aku ni ada early symptom of menopause? chaaiitt......

entahla...
pernah tak korang rasa macam nak terbang
jauh jauh jauh gile
macam tu jela lebih kurang ape aku rasa

hurmm...
this blog has been a -place for me to stop by once in a while
to meroyan
to merajuk
to meluahkan
even not everything tapi most of the thing is here
and certain thing kinda have a personal impact on me
having it post in as public view,
pastu certain people that i know might have end up reading what i read
then aku rasa awkward
yelah,
aku cerita2 selama ni melibatkan sangat general
and tanak la kot2 ada yang rasa "eh, dia ni tulis pasal ni" "eh, dia ni tulis pasal tu"
alaaa...tahla..rasa tak best
maybe aku akan well, shift this feeling to somewhere else
nak private kan blog would be a funny thing to do since yela selama2 ni da public
tetiba private pastu cam entahla

bukan merajuk. or lari. or whatever u might call it
tapi lebih kepada finding myself again
yup, aku ni selalu je rasa macam kat outer space
pegun tatau mana hala tuju
and itu tidak best
dan saya plan nak kumpul duit
nak gi somewhere only HE knows
and semoga dipermudahkan
sebab i dont think that i can hold on anymore.
nak cerita pada orang, pendapat orang lain2
so, akan end up tak fully sampai message aku
maka saya rasa baiklah saya yang settlekan sendiri

to my dearest, i know u would be silently reading this
being a good friend is one thing
but being a human is another
and i know i'm a complicated humanbeing that u might have known all ur life
i cant really tell what's going on
coz i just dont know
and i'm bad at explaining things
if only i can pull out my heart and show it all~~~
so maka walaupun sesiapa kata "dont" sana sini based on their experience
harap maaf
saya tanak belajar kenal diri sendiri dengan experience kamu
let me have my own bittersweet memory of finding things my way

hmmmm...
suka sangat nak crammed pat lima nam cite jadi satu
tapi lantoklah
malas nak asing2kan entri.

here and there

it has been a confused week so far
with me having pack schedule. audit assignment back to back until end of October.
have roughly 6 assignment ahead. meaning 6 more busy week
it's not that i'm complaining
but i hardly breathing
having to slightly trying to catch things here and there
learn things here and there
and most importantly dealing with my own doubtfulness
i doubt if i ever stay in this line
like forever

and no internet connection on client place
i need to rely on my colleague's wireless hotspot from her smartphone
to cut things short, my activities in the net has been minimalised
i oso have to re-type certain things again and again due to internet connection that sucks all my writing in a glimpse
well, internet can be a wonder world one minute and a disaster in another.
especially in time of emergency or deadline

have been sleeping early this past 2 days. i dooze off around 8pm
but today, i dont know, maybe because of the caffeine intake plus the "enough rest" symptom that my body encounter into
i spent my time watching family outing season 2 and sabrina the teenage witch season 2
i favor FO Season 1 more as it's more funny and more "family" type.
and sabrina, i just love watching her. no other solid reason.

my intention to stay with both atok and wan during the week is just a mere intention
i dont think i can really taking a good care of them while i'm running here and there to work and everything
so, just let it be. plus, they're already in my aunt's house. her house is more suitable plus my cousin is there to watch them over. maybe, i'll pay them a visit tomorrow or before i going back to Shah Alam....

that's about all for the week
and yeah, last saturday i kinda sentap with my bestmate. i dont feel like discussing it here and now. it's just a major disappointment when someone sees me as a person that always see bad things in others. but, in a way, it's a good thing that i know that or else i wouldnt know forever. maybe, things that i've said or done have hurt people in a way that i am too blind to see? who knows? u know u tell. i wont notice my own flaws.
and i dont know that people hiding things from me to prevent me from hurt. the truth is, the hidden things and my curiosity is what hurt most. i hope people around me will open up to me more. and i'm sorry for being insensitive all this long. but i bet, i need to hear more on other people side before jumping into conclusion rite? hmmm...just leave it as it is until i find a suitable time to discuss it face to face.

i hope i wont lose another bestmate coz i'm insensitive
i think i need to isolate myself to give them space to think more
and time for me to actually learn myself.
we'll see what Allah has plan for me
as for now, I do have few planning
not to run away
but to give myself time to learn my mistake and start again.
InsyaAllah, He'll open that path for me =)

a tale that u help to create

when i say we are drifting apart
u say "naahhh....never"
when i say you are getting different
u tell "naahh....i dont feel like changing"
when i say times has grew us apart
u say "no worries, things remain the same"

but, when i call, u dont pick up like u usually do
if u pick up, u dont talk like we usually did

and when i text u dont reply as if i send thousands
if u did, it'll still hurt either with ur short reply or with the absence feeling of sincere "u" in that msg.


should i stick to myself- that everything does change
or should i just pretend that nothing matter??

either way, i dont think u are being brave enough to admit that u've indeed change
not that i will be angry. i might get upset awhile, or disappointed
but then,it'll be different story if  i wasnt given a false hope.

u see, disappointment comes from expectation
expectation are build from hope
hope exist when there's something that u can rely on
and that something is, in this case, is the friendship we had.

i've been asking and forcing myself to let things go with the flow
but what flow am i going to follow?

i've asked for forgiveness,
but maybe i havent even forgive myself
and without forgiving, i might have problems with forgetting.

pardon me dear friend
for i was carried away with some delusion supported with wild assumption
and i dont even move on thou i thought i have,

coz, when i thought i saw any hope,
i end up getting disappointed more.
it's not u, it's just me whose soul is in shadow
cant even differentiate between real hope and "for-the-sake-of-being-nice attitude so that ida wont get hurt" thingy~~~~
trust me, i will still get hurt either way
it just that, i'm asking u a favor,
let me get hurt with honor
let me get hurt with honesty
let me get hurt by facing reality.
tell me the direct truth and no sembunyi-sembunyi
i may end up crying, or hurting
but one thing for sure, i can end up this "delusion" that u help to create.
i can end up this confusion along with the hope
and maybe, i can even forgive myself and forget

do me a favor,
help me to move on
without this confusion
that clouding my mind

period.

rebellious

saya suka jadi rebel
bila tade keje, rebel konon boring
bila banyak keje, rebel konon stress
bila stress, rebel by blogwalking
and thus, end up i'm no happy lady.

rebel eh?

semalam baru dapat tau student IPT will get kad diskaun siswa 1 malaysia
yela, semuanye nak letak 1 malaysia
sian orang nak nyebut nye payoh. panjang
ok. that's not the point pun
cuma rasa sedikit tensi sebab da tak bergelar student T__T
sonok je dulu kan jadi student
sekarng punya student pun makin la seronok

itu yang rasa nak rebel je kan.

ok. lame excuses

tadee ubat ke penyakit rebel ni?
ubat khayal ke, ubat penenang ke.
keje banyak ni, boleh wat deekk..
rasa nak lempang diri sendiri.

still searching

Month 3, the audit field has increase tremendously. 

Technically speaking, I’ll be on 7 out of 8 assignments throughout September and October.

 In one way, I’m happy because it is actually a good chance for me to learn. 

But in another way, i feel like i’m lying to myself. 

The more i’m exposed to this field, the more i feel loss. Lost in a way that i don’t know what i’m doing. I’m like a blindfolded man, searching for myself in the middle of a crowded place (in my case, i’m searching for myself in a middle of audit fieldwork). 

I still cant geddit how they work their way around here. And each time i’m out for fieldwork, i’ll unintentionally, make comparison with my previous love-hate experience as associate auditor way back in last year.

They are indeed friendly and helpful but within times, i feel like i just cant fit in. And i know that i’m still learning and is still not doing a very good job, but this time around, i just feel like there’s a hole in every things that i done.

And it is of course not fair for the company to have me here. It’s also not fair to myself as i push myself to love this job and to have passion in it. Love and passion is not something that u can simply take and throw it to things. It is magically appeared in your heart and u should be able to feel it, to endure it.

Then again, i told myself maybe this time around, it will take extra time to develop this kind of feeling. Anyway, as at today, i just sincerely feel lost, guilty for staying and angry to myself.

I hope by the end of my contract, i can pull every missing piece together and will know what exactly that i’m looking for. As for now, hope that anyone reading this; please pray for my job satisfaction.

Dear Lord, if this is indeed the best thing that should happen to me, than, let the missing pieces pull together and give me strength to face any circumstances that might occur in between. But, if it is just a test in searching for myself, then, blessed me with your guidance to get thru with it.

p/s: That person is still missing in action. If he indeed not going to be the best thing that ever happen to me, then, just increase the distance between us. I cant afford to hoping and assuming and letting my heart break into thousand pieces again. Why he ever come if he knew best that he’ll not stay?

Just when I thought you were going to stay

You continue doing what you do best- disappear

Nah, disappear would be too rough. Let just say you went MIA.

I just starting to be happy for having you back

Guess karma is indeed biatch. What I’ve done, it comes bite me back.

Well Mister, if you are going to be the Karma for my mistake, then, I guess I don’t have much choice other than letting you go-Literally and emotionally.

“Disappointment only exists when there is hope…” (Quote from I-can’t remember)

Been busy this week, and with sprained leg, I find it adventurous to move around like I used to.

Next week onwards until October, I’ll be fully occupied with assignment/fieldwork. I don’t know. The 

passion is just not there, maybe just not yet. That’s why I’ve been feeling a bit odd towards my job here.

I don’t know. I don’t want to make any assumption for what the future hold but I can feel that me and internal auditing here wouldn’t last long.

As always, I’m scared… Lord, gimme strength to face the unpredictable future of mine. I need a lot of it. And YOU would always knew the best for me, then gimme a hint or two. 

accident and kahwin

rabu ritu

lepas balik dari odit

Lai Kuen hantar aku gi Endah Parade

pastu vroom laa saya balik ke shah alam

tatau apa silapnye

boleh eksiden.

pergh, konvensional gila cerita

macam tadee perasaan je kan

tah. tak reti nak story

yang pastinye aku eksiden kat selekoh jalan motor

itula hari tu kan kutuk2 jalan motor

sekarang ini makan dia...

aku jatuh ke kanan, face down

nasib baik helmet ada visor

so, selamat la muka ai

motor pun tak cedera teruk sangat

casing lampu depan, handle bengkok sikit

aku plak cermin mata bengkok

memang kena ganti baru ni

lagipun da bertahun aku pakai

harta benda semua ok. 

cuma aku jela

bahu aku cam terseliuh ke hape, tegang semacam.

taleh nak teleng2 kepala stok nyanyi lagu haseleheh tu

perut aku calar balar sikit sebab kena batu2 jalan tu kot

kaki aku lebam2 

dan seluruh betis kanan aku tegang semacam.

orang kata urat ke otot terseliuh

entahla..aku pun tak reti nak cakap camne

tapi yang pastu bila da baring, pastu nak bangun mesti sakit gile

aku nak jalan pun terhencut hencut

khamis seharian aku MC

tadee gi mana2 melainkan golek2 tido je

pastu sapu dengan krim panas bagi kurangkan sikit tegang tu...

and jumaat, aku da taleh tahan sangat

aku decide nak balik seremban nak berurut

lantokkan la kerja kfc yang da ada planning jadual tu

yang pastinya aku gila tak larat nak kerja

kalo setakat kerja aku duduk je amik order takpe

ni nak kena jalan sana sini tu yang tak tahan

aku balik naik motor

gigih ok...da la nak start motor kemain lagi sakitnye

motor adik aku modenas gt128 tu macam lain sikit

dia punye pedal kaki dekat sangat dengan starter

so, setiap kali aku nak start tu,

kaki mesti berlaga dengan pedal tu

lagi la sakit oiii

tapi gagahkan jugak

sebab da alang2 nak tukar kereta dengan motor

balik jela dengan motor kan

tapi memang jelas la kecuakkan aku time rempits

macam haper je..

alhamdulillah sampai jugak rumah...

sampai2 je seremban,

terus siap2

gi rumah orang berurut

sakit gile makcik tu rilek je tekan2 tempat lebam aku

nak jerit kang over plak

so aku tutup muka

ketap gigi and redha

alhamdulillah ada kurang sikit

tengkuk aku da tak kejang kejung rasa

cuma betis aku still tegang je

makcik tu cakap banyak sangat angin 

yela, eksiden rabu petang,

aku gi berurut jumaat malam

so da lebih patpuloh lapanjam

memang patut pun angin bnykk

sabtu plak gi kenduri kat melaka

amboi kengkonon sakit tapi berjalan kan

hahaha

ktorg carpooling. aku tumpang livina ikin

so, dapat la bersenang lenang kat belakang

tapi masok rumah pengantin

terus ilang ayuuu

harusla, jalan terencut2

dahla jalan cam gangster kan? 

tah ape la ghupenya..

ini wedding siti afiqah hamzah kat melaka. dekat dengan masjid tanah, sekolah aku kem terendak.

punye la gmbr peace2 bagai padahal kaki tahan je tu sakit terkepit gituu..

takpela...member kawin bukan hari2 

lagipun kang kalo aku diri tak seimbang plak gambar ni

sebab iolls kan demokk

huahuahua

apa apa pun,

tahniah bukan fiqa and suami. cantik gila dia. yelah, nama pun seri pengantin kan. tapi seriusly cantik buat aku teringin je nak kawin...

lepas tu, gi raya rumah cikgu homeroom bebudak ni baru balik

and aku da tak larat nak drive balik shah alam, so tido la aku berhimpit lagi dengan omma.ngeee...

pagi tadi bangun siap2 gitu gerak gi rumah orang beraya

aku join 2 rumah je pastu terus gerak balik shah alam

on the way tu, singgah bangi jap ada open house

makan bakso.

sodapp...ngeeee...

sakit2 pun makan tetapnye berselera

ni sampai shah alam, aku da tak larat nak kerja kfc

lantak la nak tulis absent ke ape

lagipun kaki ai belum fully recover

okla, esok nak gi kerja awal

kena la tido awal

huuuu....

malaishnye nak kerja

dari khamis da cuti,

so, badan rasa cam tak bermaya je nak kerja.

dasaar betul

oh,  before terlupa

nak cite jugak..ngeee =P

aku dok sibuk ngadu dengan member aku kata aku eksiden

yelah, kata nan ado boypren, maka dengan kengkawan jela aku nak manja2

beliau: wah, rajin jugak ko eksiden kan?

aku: itula pasal. nak wat cane. itu belum kira yang jatuh2 biasa tu

beliau; aku rasa ko da kena kawin la muja (*panggilan masa sekolah). 

aku: eh, kenapa plak

beliau: yela, da kawin nanti, ada la suami yang boleh jaga ko. anta ko gi kerja ke, apa ke

aku: hahahaha...ntahla........................................

ceh, ekceli sebelum aku cerita dengan beliau, pagi khamis masa gi klinik dengan dila pun, 

aku da terpikir

mungkin aku ni kena kahwin kot

suro hasben cari kan drebar sorang kan

aku rilek jadi mem kat belakang. 

amboii...

kemain lagi verangan.

tetiba member aku boleh plak wat statement gitu

adehh...

kahwin? insyaallah.

bila? nti la one fine day

dengan siapa? dengan suami ai la.=P

uish, jangan dilayan sangat gatai ni

mentang kengkawan ramai nak kawin

aku pun sibuk gatai

kot layan kang, elok2 nak tido terus tak tido

takpela, one fine day, dah jodoh tak kemana kan??

sementara tunggu sampai jodoh tu

elok la aku setelkan tanggungjawab aku mana yang ada dulu

one fine day people

aku akan jumpa jugak dengan lelaki yang boleh pimpin aku dunia akhirat..amin...